Coming This Fall! THE NIGHT BELONGS TO LOVERS

HAUNTED HEARTS – EVERYONE DESERVES A HAPPY EVER AFTERLIFE!

Haunted Hearts is an Own-Voices Paranormal Romance Series about love and the things that go boo in the night.

Join us on our romantic journeys with ten books from some of your favourite gay and queer male authors, including myself! Be sure to read the entire series so you don’t miss a moment of falling in love, or sometimes falling into a happily ever after-life!

There’s a range of engaging tropes and spice levels between us, along with a diverse spectrum of supernatural elements within each narrative. From Urban Fantasy to Historical Romance to Gothic Horror, these own-voice authors bring their distinct perspectives to the M/M Paranormal Romance Genre. Each book is a standalone but why not read them all?

 

Here are the 10 books in the series, with author links, in the order they will be released beginning September 27th!

Geist Fleisch – Christian Baines https://www.christianbaines.com/
Ritual of the Broken – Seb L. Carter (Sebastian) https://www.instagram.com/sebcarter91/
Curse of the Stag’s Eye – Glenn Quigley https://glennquigley.com/
❤️The Night Belongs To Lovers – Ryan Lawrence (ME!) 
Frat Ghost Wingman – Finn Dixon https://www.finndixonwriting.com/#/
The Neverloving Dead – Tal Frost https://www.tal-frost.com/about
Shadowing My Dreams – Shane K. Morton http://shanekmorton.com/
Medium Rare – J.P. Jackson https://jpjacksonwrites.com/                                                                                      Cordelia Manor – Adam J. Ridley (aka Blake Allwood) https://bookstore.blakeallwood.com/
Three Heart Junction – Colin Dereham https://colindereham.wordpress.com/

Let’s take a look at my entry, THE NIGHT BELONGS TO LOVERS, including the awesome cover designed by Samrat Acharjee–with input from yours truly, of course.

TRUE LOVE IS ETERNAL. REVENGE IS UNDYING.

Ancient deities, a vengeful spirit, and the enigmatic Wheel of Destiny clash in a monumental battle for and against true love. But how potent is truth when it’s frustratingly subjective and perception is easily manipulated?

Olympius and Coriolanus, two powerful immortal lovers, endure over two millennia of heartache, back-and-forth condemnations, and consummate betrayal secretly orchestrated by a malevolent, cursed ghost. And this vengeful apparition will stop at nothing, commit any atrocity, to keep the Fated Lovers apart.

From the blood-soaked streets of embattled ancient cities to the dazzling gay nightlife of modern-day Toronto, Canada, these two star-crossed lovers, these undying embodiments of darkness and the night itself, attempt to repair their shattered relationship time and again. With the aid of a wise, crafty old friend, can Olympius and Coriolanus find their way back to each other before their spectral enemy succeeds in destroying their love forever?

THE NIGHT BELONGS TO LOVERS will be released October 7th, just in time for Halloween, on Amazon for EBOOK and PAPERBACK and through Kindle Unlimited.

PREORDER my book now on AMAZON!

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Haunted Hearts Logo by Glenn Quigley

 

BOOK REVIEW: DEVIL’S DUE BY J.P. JACKSON

 

“The flames of Hell scorched and licked every fibre of my body. I hated being summoned. It hurt like hell. Instantly put me in a bad mood. – J.P. Jackson, Devil’s Due

DOMINIC Ronove is a centuries-old “Contract Demon” scouring the city of Edmonton, Alberta, on Hell’s order, seeking desperate and/or corruptible humans willing to trade their souls for 6 years of great success before the contract comes due. Also, as author J.P. Jackson writes, “a small token of [their] appreciation” will be required in the deal-making. What does Dom mean? Pleasure or pain? Maybe both? It’s different for everyone. I’ll let your imagination play it out. Now, everything changes for Dom when he encounters handsome Malik Parsa, a laid-back gay man in his twenties with a typical everyday life and a sexy, outdoorsy best friend—with benefits—who may just have an issue with Dom entering the picture.

Despite his primary mission of fulfilling contracts for souls for Hell while also contending with a coven of sibling witches who have it out for him, Dom becomes increasingly preoccupied with this alluring man who seems to possess an inexplicable allure. And our demon isn’t the only one who has taken notice.

The trope of “making a deal with the devil” is commonly explored in literature in both horror and comedic form; it can be tricky to make this feel fresh in contemporary fiction. That said, Jackson is in no way beating a dead horse here, so to speak. He has managed to entertain me and convince me that there’s still a way to feature both the contractual negotiations between Hell and humans and the inevitable consequences of said agreement in a fascinating new light. His book explores more than the conventional “you get what you deserve when entering into a contract with Hell” scenario, though you see the process and drama attached to the “collecting.” There are layers, people, and as I said before, you want to overlook Dom’s nature and see so much more in him.

Jackson has penned a narrative that compels you to empathize with, though maybe not cheer for—yet, the villain or the supposed love interest who is, at the very least, deeply morally questionable. (Umm, did I mention he’s a demon?) It’s a tale that dares to question the very fabric of Good and Evil and authenticity and manipulation—or do I mean persuasion? It’s a thought-provoking journey that will leave you pondering long after you’ve turned the last page. Devil’s Due is a quick read, more novella than a novel, and the ending is a cliffhanger, so there’s definitely potential (and a desire from this reader) to continue Dom and Malik’s story. And not just theirs. There’s a plethora of intriguing B-characters who have just begun to reveal their secrets and agendas.

Devil’s Due showcases a diverse range of supernatural beings, some exploding onto the page without much secrecy, like witches and vampires, and one or two that were a delightful, clandestine surprise, like—nope, nice try. No spoilers here! This rich tapestry of supernatural entities will keep you on the edge of your seat, eager to discover more about their roles in the story. Enemies, allies and frenemies, OH MY!

The book strikes a perfect balance, feeling sexy without crossing over into explicit smut, which appealed to me as I was drawn to this work for the queer paranormal theme over explicit M/M sexual content. That said, the narrative delivers just the right combination of grit and mature content, offering a thrilling mix of tantalizing, shocking, and awe-inspiring moments, whether in the form of intimate scenes or intense action (aka sex and violence! lol). That this is an unapologetically diverse and queer world, both natural and supernatural, is precisely what I expect from J.P. Jackson.

Painting of Hell on Ceiling Wall

Something I really like about this story is that it shows young queer men having a variety of interests and personal callings that drive them. Malik is looking for a sensual connection and monogamous relationship; Dom is basically omnisexual (he’s a demon in human flesh, after all) with an anything goes mentality; and Scott, Malik’s best friend and fuck-buddy, is never treated like a whore for wanting a gay relationship that isn’t emotionally compatible with what Malik wants. And the fact that both men can recognize this so that it doesn’t fracture their friendship is awesome. Perhaps it’s not integral to the horror story, per se, but these moments of realism—intimacy, conversation, and connection—strengthen the text by driving complexity.

Despite some minor proofreading issues, Devil’s Due is an emotionally charged, exhilarating story. The contemporary ideas and intriguing character design make it a great read, with, in my opinion, nothing detracting from the overall impact of J.P.’s compelling queer urban paranormal horror story.

Devil’s Due is available for purchase online at amazon.ca and amazon.com. For more information about this author, follow J.P. Jackson on FacebookInstagram, and also his Website.

 

 

Book Review: Whispers of Apple Blossoms By Brett Mitchell Kent

“His ancient quilt still waited patiently draped over the back for a master that would never return. At least not as he was. She pulled it down and wrapped herself into it, inhaling deeply of her husband’s lingering musk, tears streaming down her cheeks. ‘Henry, I miss you so much. I miss you so so so much.’” – Brett Mitchell Kent, Whispers of Apple Blossoms

AUTHOR BRETT Mitchell Kent presents a thought-provoking tale stretching across decades; a sorrowful widow laments the loss of her husband and daughter and a trail of vanished individuals converge at an unexpected focal point: Edna Mann. Edna, seeking solace for her lost family, discovers an unlikely source of comfort when her departed husband communicates with her through her houseplant. As those in her vicinity begin to disappear, Edna must confront the unsettling truth that something far more sinister may be unfolding, and it has been happening for much longer than she could have ever imagined.

The story is rich with atmosphere and profound emotion, delving into themes of love, sorrow, dread, and fixation. The author skillfully weaves these themes into the central motif of processing grief, creating a deeply personal and poignant narrative (Edna’s story, absolutely, but not hers alone). The distorted reality of an elderly woman consumed by remorse becomes intertwined with her fervent yearning to revisit the past.

Whispers of Apple Blossoms exudes a captivating blend of romance and chilling malevolence, drawing the reader deeper into the shadows with each cascading petal and leading to an unforgettable climax. The novel unfolds with deliberate, gradual intensity, skillfully entangling the storyline around the reader’s heart like grasping vines. It roots a distinct sense of poignancy in the narrative before delivering a devastating emotional blow. The haunting quality of the story lingers long after the end, reminiscent of a great Henry James novel.

This compelling story deeply moved me with its powerful and emotive journey. The range of emotions it evokes, from compassion to sadness to frustration to fear, connected me to the characters in a way that was anything but superficial or “arm’s length.” How the oft-melancholic yet touching narrative seamlessly shifted between the past and present, from the Great Depression to modern times, allowed me to fully immerse myself in Edna’s world of grief and denial. And no, I did not feel the addition of “flashback scenes” halted the flow of the story; if anything, the layers of narrative texture came off successfully coherent and engaging.

The unexpected plot twists kept me on the edge of my seat, and the unique horror elements added a thrilling quality to the story if one is looking for more than relationship and familial drama in this book. I’m not talking about Clive Barker’s horror here, gory and heinous; it’s impactful fright that’s more palatable for a wider audience, somewhere between Stephen King and The Haunted Mansion. It’s traditional Hitchcockian terror, yet quite contemporary in its approach. I love it when a writer can mix horror (on any level) and nature and still make it feel innovative. Like Marc Ruvolo with his work Pieties, which I’ve recently reviewed, it’s exciting to experience contemporary writers handling a thematic element done before and still managing to make it feel fresh and surprising.

The captivating narrative allowed me to easily connect with the characters and understand their lives, emotions, and motivations. At its core lies the love story of Edna and Henry, which is a moving portrayal of how loss can profoundly alter one’s identity and the lengths a person is willing to go to cling to those they hold dear, in life, in memory, and even in death. That said, I was pleased to see the inclusion of a queer/gay storyline that ran alongside the main plot. While I could have easily seen Edna and Henry’s story through the perspective of a same-sex couple, I understand it’s not any LGBTQ writer’s responsibility to always queer their narratives. Adding a secondary story with queer characters was appreciated, as I did hope to see some representation by this writer within the text before I began. Hoped—not expected. So, thank you, Brett.

The revelation involving Noor’s character at the end did feel somewhat rushed, however, and I wished there had been more exploration of that pivotal moment. Nevertheless, it did not hamper the flow of tension or lessen the dramatic impact of the final act. Brett Mitchell Kent’s novel, Whispers of Apple Blossoms is exceptional, and I wholeheartedly recommend it. And that cover! Stunning!

Whispers of Apple Blossoms is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.com, and !ndigo.ca. For more information about this author, follow Brett Mitchell Kent on Instagram and Facebook. Also, check out his webpage.

Book Review: Paleolithica By Nando Gray

“‘Look,’ Cascade said seriously. He gripped Entin by the shoulder and peered into his eyes imploringly. ‘If you come with me, there will be no turning back. Captives who abandon before the war will be killed. I won’t be able to protect you if you step outside of the rules. And you should know that The Wolves are real. And dangerous.’”– Nando Gray, PALEOLITHICA

PALEOLITHICA BY Nando Gray is a captivating blend of contemporary language and a deep dive into the lives of humans in the Stone Age and their tribal communities. The narrative delves into their fascinating interaction with a mighty volcano, which they revere as a deity. The plot unfolds through the intricate lives of two prehistoric queer men who become lovers (don’t read about this every day!) and three distinct cultures and tribes: Summerhome, Mountainhome, and “The Wolves.” Oh, and there’s a witch scheming amongst these tribes, driven by a lust for power. 

First, I want to speak on Gray’s use of modern verbiage in the narrative. While this is Historical Fiction, the story is within the M/M genre, first and foremost, so I understand why the author frequently used more accessible language instead of giving us Clan of the Cave Bear or Quest For Fire. What he’s attempted to do (and I feel he’s succeeded) is create a more fluid reading experience and provide his readers with an efficient, quicker way to connect with his characters. Choosing a more simplistic style of speech runs the risk of making the character interactions and scene descriptions unengaging. Also, as this isn’t a 500-page saga, Gray doesn’t overly complicate his writing by attempting to create a unique dialect (or dialects) to match the primitive era.

Text that requires too much translation or inference can be exhausting if one is looking for an easy-to-relate-to romance narrative. And text that is too “basic,” again, doesn’t allow an accessible bridge to really get into the characters’ moods, reflections and intentions. Mixing contemporary language with terms and verbiage one would expect from a novel set in the Stone Age is the best compromise for reader comprehension, allowing for more complexity in character development but still providing a feeling of era authenticity.

Entin, a member of the Summerhome tribe, experienced significant loss at a young age with the death of his parents and the disappearance of his twin sister. Despite facing overt rejection from his tribe to the point of humiliation and being forced to learn the ways of the tribeswomen as a form of emasculation for what everyone believes to be his homosexual nature, Entin remains kind, holds a deep love for nature, and opposes violence. Isolated from his peers, his only friend and ally in the tribe is Aiel, a kind girl who was his missing sister’s best friend. [Image On Right Property Of Nando Gray.]

Cascade, the son of the Mountainhome Tribe’s chief, is a skilled hunter known for his strength and compassion. Cascade is intelligent and innovative, having created a useful tool—basically, the bolo—though he never intended it to be used as a weapon of violence against others. Nonetheless, it became a tool for hunting and fighting in his tribe. The Mountainhome tribe is obsessed with destroying “The Wolves,” a dangerous, competitive tribe.

The story, and especially the romance, truly begins after the Mountainhome tribe raids the Summerhome tribe. This results in the destruction of the Summerhome village and the capture of its inhabitants to be held as slaves. This is where our two lovers meet, as Cascade essentially saves Entin from death, primarily via his violent uncle, Harlak.

As this is an M/M novel, there’s the expected man-on-man sex, and it will absolutely titillate those readers of the genre looking for gay romance to go hand in hand with a satisfying degree of gay smut. Male anatomy is large and in charge, my friends. “Entin screamed in pleasure. The sound of their ensuing rutting would be unmistakable to anyone within miles of the mountaintop.” I love it when an author uses the term “rutting,” which works in the time period. And yes, before these sentences, contemporary terms like “pre-cum” are used. Still, like I’ve previously stated, it speaks to the modern reader, allowing them to instantly get into the eroticism of the text without it feeling cumbersome or oddly unsexy with archaic verbiage or made-up terms. And I was into our two lovers connection! Werk, Nando! [Above Image Is Property Of Nando Gray.]

And yes, our modern society places great emphasis on cleanliness and pleasant scents, and I’m one of those people, but it’s best to focus on something other than the most likely reality of the situation on the page here. If it reads hot, go with it! 

Now, some M/F sex scenes exist within the narrative involving a psychotic witch—with an agenda all her own! So, this might be jarring to those not expecting any graphic depictions of this type of sexuality in an expected M/M text. I feel this is where the Historical Fiction aspect of the narrative takes a firmer grasp, allowing the author to add more complexity to his story and widening the narrative and character development beyond just the relationship of our two gay male protagonists.

As a gay male author who also has M/F scenes in some of his writing (not that I have any personal experience with it, but that’s where research and the personal accounts of others help tremendously), I’m not bothered by the author’s decision to expand the sexual activity of more than just his gay male characters. However, if you only want to read about completely M/M experiences, well, you’ve been warned.

I was pleasantly surprised to find stunning illustrations preceding each chapter in Gray’s novel. Each image beautifully depicts the upcoming setting or scene, adding a layer of visual charm to the book.

Paleolithica is a story about survival, betrayal, empathy, and love/passion between men. It contains themes of violence vs. perseverance, tenderness vs. terror, and revenge vs. justice. It’s a fascinating depiction of ancient tribalism and early human interaction and life in a time before 10,000 BC. Gray’s writing is never dry or muddled with excessive world-building and overwrought exposition of character intent and drive, which can make for a very laborious read. There is world-building, as one would expect from a book depicting a world practically alien from our modern time, but its delivery is captivating, imaginative, and succinct. [Above Image Is Property Of Nando Gray.]

What Nando Gray has done here with his novel, Paleolithica, is bold and visionary: incorporating a modern gay love story into an era where instinct, procreation, and survival seem to our modern eyes to be the main impetus for the purpose of human life. But what if? Gray goes beyond what we know regarding queerness in ancient Greco-Roman Love; this is the unknown possibilities of Prehistoric queerness emboldened not by traditional, conventional, expected motivators but by an organic desire for connection, companionship, and love. 

The novel’s ending suggests further adventure, and the Epilogue, set in current times, holds an intriguing twist! This is only Book 1 of 2, and I think we are in for an even bigger tale yet to be told. Can’ wait!

Paleolithica is available for purchase online at amazon.ca & amazon.com. For more information about this author, follow Nando Gray on Instagram and Facebook. Also, check out his linktr.ee!

 

 

Book Review: The Art Series by Andrew Grey

The Art Series Collection

IN FOUR gripping novels, author Andrew Grey brings to life an incredible journey of resilience, determination, and the pursuit of justice. Grey skillfully intertwines the worlds of art, intrigue, and romance in this captivating series he has said was inspired by the real-life story of Maria Altmann. Maria, an elderly Jewish refugee in Cheviot Hills, Los Angeles, and her young lawyer, Randy Schoenberg, embarked on a nearly decade-long battle against the government of Austria. Their mission was to regain Gustav Klimt’s iconic masterpiece, “Portrait of Adele Bloch-Bauer I,” which had been stolen by the Nazis from Maria’s relatives in Vienna just before the outbreak of World War II. [Author Image Property of Andrew Grey]

In the first entry, Legal Artistry, Dieter Krumpf embarks on a poignant mission to recover his family’s art collection, left behind during their desperate escape from the grip of the Nazis. In his quest, he joins forces with the talented and charming lawyer Gerald Young, who initially doubts the likelihood of the paintings being returned and the difficulty and impracticality of suing in Austria.

Nevertheless, Dieter’s sincerity resonates with Gerald; plus, he’s hot for him (professional red flag?! :)), and as his bond with Dieter deepens, so does his resolve to win the case. In their quest for justice, to reclaim the lost paintings, their journey may lead them to find something even more valuable and precious than rare art: true love!

In the thrilling second installment, Artistic Appeal, Attorney Brian Watson steps into the spotlight as he takes over the case to secure the return of the famous painting “The Woman in Blue.” Yet when friends Gerald and Dieter extend an invitation to their Christmas party, he wonders if there isn’t some match-making meddling in the air? Their plan to arrange an introduction between Brian and a friend fails as Nicolai, a deaf art restorer, is the one who catches Brian’s interest. This encounter leads to a tale of romance and the breaking down of walls and guardedness as the two men set out to forge a new and meaningful connection.

However, pursuing Nicolai will be challenging for Brian. After a bad breakup, Nicolai struggled to regain his independence, and he’s hesitant to give up his hard-earned freedom once again. To complicate matters, Brian faces competition from Justin, Nicolai’s ex, who is trying to win him back. Nicolai’s hesitance is just one of the numerous challenges Brian is facing. After being married to a woman for nearly a decade, Brian has to navigate the difficult task of informing his mother, ex-wife, and young daughter about his love for another man. On top of that, he is handling a potentially groundbreaking court case and striving to convince Nicolai that love is not about dependency but connection and support.

In Artistic Pursuits, a new branch of the series, we’re introduced to FBI agent Frank Jennings and Interpol agent Leslie Carlton. Frank is seeking redemption, while Leslie is on the hunt for a thief. Their undeniable attraction ignites when they cross paths while collaborating on a high-stakes case to recover a one-of-a-kind triptych of exquisite Tiffany windows. Following an intense and passionate one-night stand, Leslie is called back to London to further pursue the investigation.

As the case escalates, Leslie returns to the United States and is reunited with Frank. However, their unresolved feelings threaten to complicate their professional endeavours. Can these dedicated detectives navigate their deepening connection while relentlessly chasing the trail of the stolen artwork and the cunning perpetrator responsible for its theft?

Finally, in the last installment of the series, In Legal Tender, Timothy Besch left home at eighteen to escape his tumultuous relationship with his mother. Despite the upheaval, he remained devoted to visiting his grandfather, who imparted invaluable lessons on love and life. Following his “Grampy’s” passing, Timothy discovered a family legacy far exceeding his wildest dreams. Inside the house that Timothy loves so much is a cache of coins with historical value—and a mystery: one of the coins isn’t supposed to exist.

In memory of his grandfather, Timothy sets out to ensure the coins are honoured. In his determined effort to prevent the authorities from seizing his grandfather’s coins, he encounters Joiner, an attorney at Gerald and Brian’s firm. Joiner’s unmistakable desire for Timothy contrasts with Timothy’s reserved, guarded demeanour. There are aspects of Timothy’s history and present circumstances that he’s unwilling to disclose, even to the hot, handsome individual assisting him with the complexities of his legal situation.

In Grey’s writing, I consistently look forward to his genuine portrayal of same-sex desire and the multifaceted contexts in which it unfolds, encompassing environmental, social, emotional, and, of course, physical/sexual dimensions. He delves into the experiences, behaviours, and conversations from the perspective of a gay man, often drawing from his own encounters, I’m sure, or those of individuals from his life he is familiar with; it’s highly relatable for gay/queer male readers like myself. From the newbie twenty-odd-year-old, like Dieter Krumpf, to the mature gay man, like Brian Watson, Grey’s characters feel recognizable and both amusing and sympathetic depending on the narrative situation. While extensive, thoughtful research is undeniably valuable to any genre, and always appreciated, I am particularly drawn to the authenticity of an “Own Voices” reading experience, especially in Gay Romance.

Whenever I read a blurb to a gay/MM romance novel, I never honestly know if the plot has been given any real meat or if it’s an afterthought to the “will they/won’t they/of course, they will, so let’s get it on” romance between the hot guys. And that’s fine if one is looking for less complexity and more “fluff” or, say, simplicity, an easy, cozy reading experience. I vastly prefer depth to my characters’ personalities and relationships, including their backstories. What is the impetus for this destined meeting between fated loves? Here, Grey’s characters are fully fleshed out and three-dimensional, thoughtfully incorporating persons with disabilities, complicated familial dynamics, and the characters’ personal demons and secrets, just to name a few of the myriad captivating elements that make up his Art Series.

As I immersed myself in these novels, I was struck by the author’s ability to keep me engaged with the sophistication of his writing and the level of care and meticulous attention to detail regarding the art and historical aspects of the interconnected stories. The four narratives possess a rich complexity and an intricate, fascinating interplay that impressed me. The series, heck, each individual novel, reads cinematically. I can picture with ease the flow from one scene to the next, from one conversation to the other.

The romances are compelling, passionate, and incredibly steamy, adding rich layers of anticipation and excitement. Yet, they don’t overshadow the story elements pertaining to the varied art pieces and our protagonists’ dramatic pursuit of them. The legal intricacies, international intrigue, and each character’s connection to specific art pieces were seamlessly interwoven with the romantic and sensual/sexual aspects of the narratives. Grey has really outdone himself with this compelling series.

Legal Artistry is available for purchase at amazon.caamazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Artistic Appeal is available for purchase at amazon.caamazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Artistic Pursuits is available for purchase at amazon.ca, amazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Legal Tender is available for purchase at amazon.caamazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Or purchase the entire Art Series on one eBook at amazon.co, amazon.com, and Barnes & Noble.

For more information about Andrew Grey, follow him on Instagram, & Facebook. Also, check out his website.

 

 

 

Pulse: Orlando, June 12, 2016. A Recollection

Happy Pride Month! 

Below is a post I made on Facebook just after the Pulse shooting in Orlando, Florida. I found it in my “memories.” At first, I was like, “Great memory! (sarcasm),” but then I thought it might be an interesting time capsule moment showcasing some raw emotion and needed outpouring of thoughts. – Ryan

From Revel and Riot. revelandriot.com I bought a t-shirt with this image on it the day it became available. I don’t wear white, but black wasn’t an option. Of course, the message is what’s important, not my preferred fashion colour. The image on the left depicts the writing on the back of the Pulse T-shirt with the names of those cruelly taken.

[From Friday, June 17 2016] Orlando. Yes, it happened in the USA, but it’s a global disease: homophobia. Even though some are trying to spin it as a terrorist attack on US citizens, it’s not that blanket a statement: it’s an attack on being LGBTQ. You know, Todd and I still get asked by str8 people, “Why do you need a parade? We don’t have a parade!” What happened in Orlando is why.

The shooter apparently became enraged when he saw two men kissing in front of his kid. This is an extreme case, but don’t ever think for one minute that even someone as strong-willed as me doesn’t read his environment wherever he goes. Todd [my husband] is more sensitive to the staring and prejudices of others than I am. Still, neither one of us has ever, on a whim, without consciously thinking about it, held hands walking down the street or kissed in a public setting that wasn’t Church St. in Toronto. And this is over 19 years.

We ALWAYS have to be conscious of the fact that someone (usually a man or many men) could potentially target us with their anger, their bigotry, and their homophobia. I’ve watched all my family and non-LGBTQ friends at one time or another engage in public affection. I don’t believe any of them ever, for one second, thought they would be attacked for doing so. Todd and I have been—verbally, not physically (luck?)—and we were just walking too close to each other for their comfort. Just one example.

People wonder why I always walk with a “mean” look on my face: it’s a defence mechanism. It means I won’t go down without a fight, so think twice before you come for me. I said this once to a man following me in the early morning hours in Toronto on my way to the Greyhound station, and it worked. And I meant it! I wish I’d never had to learn to do this, but, at least for me, this was part of surviving as an out and proud gay man in a world where many despise my existence.

[Side note: Since this post in 2016, I was punched in the face walking in downtown London in broad afternoon daylight by a guy using the “F” slur. Guess my luck ran out. I had strong words with him as he ran away—cowardly. Yes, I wanted to go after him and knock his teeth out, but I had my bag on me with my laptop inside and couldn’t run with it. I also couldn’t leave it on the sidewalk—it had, at the time, the only copy of my first book on it. And as Todd said later that day, what if he wanted me to follow him to where a group of his friends were waiting? Ultimately, I walked away; it didn’t sit well with me for a long time.]

I wish I could walk with more of an easygoing smile, but I’ve learned to be (initially) very wary and untrusting of strangers—especially when I’m on my own or just with Todd. It sucks, but this vigilance has kept me alive for 43 years. Pride days, parades, clubs, and events are where people like me are “the norm” and can just BE without looking over our shoulder, without bracing to take that possible punch—I’ve seen it happen. [Again, I was happy that fateful day of “the punch,” having just picked up my Wednesday comics, and I’d let my guard down.] The men and women who went to Club Pulse to celebrate diversity and have a good time thought they were in a safe space. They were targeted.

So the next person who asks me (or my awesome husband) why “you people” need to be so “out there” and “make such an issue of it,” I will tell them why. Again and again—and continue to do so until the one day when we stop needing to be asked. Know and understand your privilege, non-LGBTQ ppl.

And, once again, to the asshole downtown [different event] who stopped me because I “looked gay to him” (I was having a fab hair day, I must admit) and told me it’s a choice and that I should pray it away—I was born this way, baby [I can’t believe I quoted Lady Gaga! LOL], so take your religious intolerance and shove it up your ass. Have a Great Pride Month!

Thanks for going down memory lane with me—melancholic as it was. Love Is Love!

And speaking of that, to the left is the graphic novel “Love Is Love” which was released in December 2016 by IDW Publishing in collaboration with DC Entertainment. It is a 144-page tribute to the victims of the Orlando nightclub shooting and features characters from various publishers and franchises with explicit permission. The comic became a New York Times bestseller, and over US$165,000 was raised through sales, which were donated to the victims.

 

QUEER POETRY SPOTLIGHT: GENTS, BAD BOYS, & BARBARIANS: NEW GAY MALE POETRY

“THE TERMS gents, bad boys, and barbarians have, in a way, nothing to do with the poets themselves or their works; and I certainly don’t intend them to be indicators of how a writer should or should not write. Think of them, rather, as impressions that might be drawn, tendencies that seem to point in a certain direction, personas that only assume shape and dimension in reference to those of some other poets.” – Rudy Kikel, Editor.

Rudy Kikel, Editor (1942-2017)

Gents, Bad Boys, & Barbarians: New Gay Male Poetry is an anthology of poetry written by gay men that reflects their lives, passions, and losses, offering insight into their unique experiences. Published in 1995, editor Rudy Kikel (sadly, now deceased) compiled a gritty, visceral, and occasionally profane collection of contemporary, at the time, own-voices poets. This collection is Lord Byron on steroids.

Explore the rich tapestry of young love, first desires, and lasting passions. Immerse yourself in the poignant exploration of themes such as self-discovery, survival, and the profound impact of AIDS, as conveyed through the evocative and compelling poetry of thirty-nine gifted gay male poets. 

I vividly remember the day I purchased this book: June 1995, during Pride weekend, my first. I’d visited Glad Day Bookshop on Yonge St. in Toronto, Canada, with friends before the parade. Glad Day holds the distinction of being the oldest queer bookstore in the world. It was only my second visit to the store, and the experience remains etched in my memory. I recall a friend of mine expressing disapproval at my decision to buy a book of poems, regardless of whether it was gay-themed or not. (“Who reads poetry!?!) As an English Major at the University of Guelph at the time, I did so quite frequently.

This book, with its pink and blue colours and evocative, playful title, grabbed my notice the second I saw it. Sorry, Armistead Maupin, but you got overshadowed that day.

The powerful collection’s content, themes, and emotional resonance are timeless and will absolutely connect with gay/queer men today. However, there’s a distinct flavour of the era in which these works originate that cannot be denied. I see it, I feel it, and it can be, at times, depressing, even infuriating. Within the pages, there is a profound exploration of complex and challenging themes, including self-hatred, internalized homophobia, remorse for past bad decisions, and experiences of sexual abuse, among many others.

Furthermore, the weight of the AIDS epidemic casts a significant shadow over several pieces, capturing the fear of mortality and the anxiety of living with this life-altering disease; this is a time before PrEP and modern antiretroviral therapies, where an HIV diagnosis could still mean a death sentence.

These poems are raw and sometimes brutal to read. The language is rarely flowery; it’s unapologetic and often lewd. These poems range from the highly erotic to the heart-wrenching. They depict many experiences that I have never had and will never have. These poems are a bloodletting, a way for these men to showcase their relationship to pain and passion, social fear and sexual freedom, and authenticity versus the closet of repression.

Today, as it was back in 1995, for many queer men, myself included, often the only universal connector we have is that we are gay/queer men in a world that doesn’t universally accept us. But that is rarely enough to boldly state that we are the same. Intellectually, I comprehend different experiences, and emotionally, I have compassion and feel a bond, but I cannot always relate. It is through collections like this that I discover the vast rainbow of queer male life.

Anyone looking to educate themselves on gay/queer male experiences, particularly pre-Millennium, even if just for entertainment, should explore this collection—thoughtfully! However, speaking as a gay man, these poems provide a source of fellowship and understanding for gay/queer men like myself, exposing us to both shared and unfamiliar experiences. Gents, Bad Boys, and Barbarians: New Gay Male Poetry is a medium by which we may immerse ourselves in the unique gay backgrounds of other men within a literal literary-safe-space

Gents, Bad Boys, and Barbarians: New Gay Male Poetry is available for purchase online at amazon.ca and amazon.com.

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Book Review: Moondrop Vale by Nando Gray

“‘Just follow me and stay close.’ Simon finished ushering Henry to follow and eying the shadows weaving off into the trees uneasily. He knew there were monsters here.”– Nando Gray, Moondrop Vale 

“NANDO GRAY’S Moondrop Vale is more than just a cautionary dystopian tale about A.I./robots turning against humanity wrapped in a gay love story. It explores the moral implications of how humans can dehumanize each other through the manipulation of science and technology. The story delves into the idea that self-serving individuals can easily corrupt technologies, even those created with benign or protective intentions, and use them to harm and control others.

The remote town of Moondrop Vale, once a bucolic place for those seeking a life away from too much reliance on technology, is now under threat from both external forces and sinister figures within the town. As a global war looms, the residents of Moondrop Vale face a deadly threat from those already among them.

The novella takes its main characters, Henry and Simon, on a profound journey of self-discovery as they undergo significant emotional and psychological growth (even physical, but that’s a whole other thing!), individually and as a couple. Yes, there is gripping action, mystery and murder, fascinating future-tech, and even genetic monsters (including one that roams the woods of Moondrop Vale), but it’s the (love)story arc of Henry and Simon that resonates with me the most. I’m a sucker for good character development.

Henry begins his journey as a survivor of genetic tinkering and a victim of professional and financial ruin, both due to the machinations of the techno-conglomerate known as GOBI. After being unfairly terminated from his job, Henry returns home to find his boyfriend in a graphic act of infidelity. Oh, and this all happens on his 25th birthday. Emotionally and psychologically scarred by the physical repercussions of GOBI’s genetic enhancements to his body, especially his package, and how his boyfriend and other men have fetishized and othered him, Henry, despite his size and strength, struggles with deep self-doubt. After receiving a surprise inheritance to a property in Moondrop Vale, Henry travels there without a second thought, having nothing left to lose.

Simon, a lifelong resident of Moondrop Vale and the object of Henry’s affection, also struggles with deep-seated issues of self-worth. As a twin with a younger brother in the army, Simon has always felt overshadowed and carries the weight of disappointing his parents, particularly his father. His fraternal twin, though a substance abuser, seems to effortlessly garner their parents’ favour with his charm and modelesque attractiveness. Additionally, Simon is trapped in a toxic relationship with an older, controlling partner despite being aware of its detrimental effects. Plagued by self-doubt and anxiety, Simon’s internal struggles manifest in his constant self-criticism and defeatist attitude.

The evolution of the two main characters, individually and as a pair, was a complex journey, yet it often frustrated me. Influenced by past traumas and defeatist attitudes, the men occasionally made non-empowering decisions. They offered up nonsensical justifications for their actions and for not actively dealing with the despicable actions of others. It’s one thing to cognitively understand personal growth occurs in confronting uncomfortable situations and facing challenges, but it’s another to be a silent witness to these stages where logic and empowerment aren’t out of reach but are ignored and pushed aside.

Several times, I found myself silently screaming at our two main protagonists, especially Simon, and, yes, unfairly judging them from my position of privilege. As someone with power and agency, I feel frustrated when I encounter depictions of weakness in others, and I have the urge to shake those who don’t react or communicate in a manner that aligns with my own approach in specific scenarios. Ronin was bad enough from the start but after the barn scene?!? Oh—no, ma’am! LOL

Gray’s ability to evoke intense emotions and provoke thoughtful introspection through complex character development is a testament to his creativity and strategic storytelling. He aims to slowly show personal growth in the face of overwhelming fear and self-doubt. Alternatively, it could be viewed as a deliberate and cunning manipulation to provoke frustration and disbelief. The author candidly portrays irrational behaviour in otherwise intelligent characters, challenging the reader’s suspension of disbelief when confronting what should be sensible decision-making and action for the sake of the overarching narrative and character growth.

As this is a gay romance set in a science-fiction medium, there is, of course, sex, and both that and the romance depictions are evocatively articulated and passionate. There is some salacious behaviour and (ahem) juicy parts (you’ll get what I’m inferring when you read it), but everything is arousing and intentional. It never comes across as gratuitous or forced into the story simply to add “smut,” which, in those instances, always stops the flow of the narrative. This issue doesn’t happen here. (And did I say flow? Okay, I’ll stop. Sorry, Henry!)

The work could have used one last editing go-round. Some flaws periodically confused me, including a section where the name HENRY erroneously replaced the name SIMON several times. Aside from these minor hiccups, Nando Gray’s Moondrop Vale is sound writing, imaginative, and thrilling Queer Sci-Fi! And the colours and font choices on the cover are perfection!!

While the novella provides action, futuristic technology, and mesmerizing genetic monsters, such as the one lurking in the woods of Moondrop Vale, the enduring impact of Henry and Simon’s personal development is what resonated with me long after I finished reading. What’s nice is that the dystopian aspects of the story aren’t heavy-hitting or overtly gloom and doom, and the science fiction isn’t highbrow. There’s an ease with Gray’s employment of these themes, which creates a palatable ingress into this futurist story, especially if science fiction isn’t a reader’s preferred genre. 

Moondrop Vale is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.com. For more information about this author, follow Nando Gray on Instagram and Facebook. Also, check out his linktr.ee!

Book Review: Pieties By Marc Ruvolo

“Andrew stared out the window at the dark blur of the passing trees… ‘I’m gay, for chrissakes. In a place that hates gays.’” – Marc Ruvolo, Pieties

In 1981, Andrew, diagnosed with a debilitating illness labelled as GRID or Gay Related Immune Deficiency (later renamed AIDS: Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome), undergoes a significant lifestyle shift, bidding farewell to his hedonistic existence in New York City. Plagued by illness and financial hardship, he returns to his estranged parents in Wheaton, Illinois, an intensely religious suburban community. His mother, a perennially sickly woman, manifests unexplained sores and bruises while traversing the dimly lit corridors during her episodes of sleepwalking. 

Concurrently, Andrew’s disapproving father absents himself for prolonged periods within the sequestered, obsessively manicured, serene Japanese garden on the property, mostly at night. Furthermore, nocturnal disturbances, possibly attributable to rodent activity, unsettle the household. 

Andrew’s suspicions mount when he observes his father engaged in clandestine activities within the garden late at night, partially obscured by the thick foliage. Subsequently, a sequence of ominous occurrences persuades him that a perilous undercurrent surpassing mere infidelity is likely at play. Andrew embarks on a compelling inquiry to unearth the concealed peril lurking within the confines of his suffocating environment.

Pieties is a harrowing read that successfully mixes queer issues—including the social and medical stigmas all too common in the 1980s—and dysfunctional familial and societal relationships with the supernatural to deliver a complex and intriguing queer horror story. When I say harrowing, I mean it was difficult at times for me, as a gay man, to (re)experience alongside Andrew the homophobia inflicted upon him and also, though totally understandable considering his environment, the self-defeatism that he often foisted upon himself. 

Whether you’ve felt this type of verbal and/or physical homophobic aggression personally or not, Ruvolo’s writing is quite visceral and pulls no punches, so empathizing with Andrew isn’t challenging for any reader. 

And yes, consider that this is the early 1980s, where fear, ignorance, and, sadly, compassionless callousness were rampant, but as much as things change, some things stay the same. Many words and disparaging actions appearing in Ruvolo’s work sadly resonate today. And though it pains me to say this, often our greatest betrayal can come not just from our families but closeted queer individuals, and this is shown here in infuriating clarity. Andrew also learns that even more openly gay individuals don’t always offer a safe space. And then there are the relentless religious sanctimonious attitudes! Andrew is besieged on so many fronts.

 Ruvolo’s straightforward human interest narrative and complex characterizations, particularly concerning queerness, are confident and thoughtful, akin to the work of James Baldwin, Christopher Isherwood, and Anne Rice. The contemporary Suburban-Gothic elements found in the novels of Peter Straub, Grady Hendrix, and Stephen King are also present and vibrant in Ruvolo’s work. The details in Ruvolo’s writing, his descriptions of the rural and urban landscapes, and the feeling of living in the early 80s are rich and evocative.

It’s worth noting that nothing feels derivative or piggybacking on the ideas and styles of any other writer; Ruvolo’s work is entirely original and compelling. While there may be correlations with the styles of the aforementioned authors, it’s more of a flavour rather than a direct influence. If there is an influence, that’s great, but it’s not essential to my main point.

While fast-paced, thrilling, and revealing, the conclusion feels abrupt, leaving the reader with a sense that the story could have delved deeper. But if this is how the author wished to end his tale, that’s cool; it doesn’t diminish the narrative’s chilling, revelatory impact. That said, certain characters’ actions and possible ends are slightly murky, but that may be Ruvolo’s intent. Are we, as readers, meant to question reality versus surrealness, conscious intent versus supernatural influence? Perhaps we are. 

I don’t want to give away too much, but I did want to explore Andrew’s future fate in more depth. That could be a story for another time. There are hints of intent, a sinister direction implied, and I’ll have to accept what Ruvolo has chosen to reveal and appreciate that I was able to be immersed in this vividly written world of the early 80s, queer suffrage, and various cultural horrors, some supernatural and some born of homegrown human nature. 

Pieties is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.comindigo.ca, and barnesandnoble.com. For more information about this author, follow Marc Ruvolo on Instagram and Facebook.

Book Review: Blackout (White Harbor: Book 2) by Carlos E. Rivera.

“Everything his parents had taught him. Every single insane rambling from Martha Lange had been true. This, he thought. This is the First Night. This is Blight Harbor.” – Carlos E. Rivera, Blackout (White Harbor: Book 2) 

“WHAT YOU WHISPER, WHAT YOU HIDE, WHAT YOU FEAR… THE TOWN KNOWS.” Rivera’s Blackout is the second book in his White Harbor series, continuing the story directly from where the first book ended. Thirty years ago, Freddie Parham sacrificed six lives in the Vanek House. Now, as a servant of a local cult leader, he sets out to perform the Ritual of the Four Nights to awaken an entity beneath White Harbor. Meanwhile, a mysterious figure puts Peter Lange and his friends in mortal danger, and they must uncover the key to it all. An inexplicable blackout devours White Harbor as the First Night begins.

Blackout is a testament to Rivera’s aptitude for inventive storytelling, with each chapter designed to captivate and immerse the reader in his story. Despite its substantial length, the novel is quite manageable, not laborious or overwhelming. On the contrary, it’s a wonderfully eerie and engaging read, with each page seamlessly leading to the next. However, it’s not the kind of book you can breeze through in one sitting. And I genuinely believe that is the author’s stance. He joins those writers like King, Rice, and myself (heh!) who love a good thick and juicy tome to sink into, take our time with, and truly invest in the story. While not for everyone, this type of descriptive narrative adds depth to the reading experience, particularly in a gothic horror setting, where it enhances the reader’s relationship with the foreboding, surreal atmosphere of the novel. 

One of the standout features of Rivera’s writing is his skill in crafting “flashback” scenes, something I praised him for in my review of The Local Truth. This narrative technique can be challenging to execute, and I know from experience that it takes some thought and planning. Like its predecessor, this novel moves fluidly back and forth through time periods and the different experiences of multiple characters without creating confusion. I never lost my way in the narrative or felt that past scenarios were unnecessary for understanding a future act or a character’s personality trait. Again, if you’re looking for linear storytelling, the White Harbour books are not that; in my opinion, they are stronger for it. 

Talking more about the novel’s use of flashbacks, the trope of storytelling via two alternating storylines featuring the life stories of children from the past in relationship to adults in the future (or the now) isn’t uncommon, King’s IT being the most famous example. But this isn’t to say that Rivera doesn’t add his own unique stamp of creative individuality to his narrative. He absolutely does!

The author’s depictions of childhood trauma and dysfunctional, if not downright deviant, family dynamics and how this plays out over time into the future lives of certain characters is as captivating as it is deeply uncomfortable to read. But no one said reading horror was painless. Rivera’s ability to write harrowing psychological abuse without coming across as gratuitous or shock for shock value’s sake is masterful. Even the expected violence, which is often graphic, especially his death scenes, is written with the utmost sophistication, a literary dance of death, where atrocity and gruesomeness meet evocative vocabulary and cleverness. Rivera is a writer who values storytelling in horror literature, not just the impact of horror for its own sake. He writes thoughtfully, approaching his work as both the author and potential reader.

I won’t name which characters’ arcs affected me the most because doing so might alter how another reacts to what they read if given a hint of an outcome. Blackout is a novel that people must experience for themselves in the moment. Okay, I will say this: I HATED “The Mother” in the first novel (in the way you love to hate a genuinely evil, vile villain), and I abhor her even more here! LOL! I can’t say enough about Rivera’s characterizations and their authenticity, never stiff or forced caricatures of literary horror archetypes.

Rivera, a queer/gay author, provides LGBTQ content, though not always in an easily palatable manner, which, considering the landscape of the narrative, is not unsurprising. There are touching moments, but the use of slang and slurs in some places may trigger some readers. I admit, there are certain words I’d be happy never to hear or see again, but authenticity is the name of the game here. Rivera is quite possibly using his own experiences as well as his general familiarity with LGBTQ situations common to many of us queer readers in his storytelling. And let’s face it, as this is horror, discomfort comes with the territory in all its forms. We take the good with the “What the BLEEP did he just say?!” 

Blackout is a brilliant novel of terror and suspense, tension and despair, and, yes, a modicum of hope. It’s absolutely filled with unexpected twists and turns, though that aspect I’ve come to expect from Rivera’s writing. Amid a nightmarish landscape, this novel vividly illustrates the awful collapse of trust and friendships, the profound consequences of surviving into adulthood in a place like White Harbor, and the cost of decisions both children and adults make. Good vs evil? Like the entire White Harbor series, Blackout is much broader than what that simplistic notion could ever convey. A MUST READ!

Blackout: White Harbor: Book 2 is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.com, indigo.ca, and barnesandnoble.com. For more information about this author, follow Carlos E. Rivera on Instagram and Facebook. Also, check out his TikTok and website!

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