PRIDE MONTH: A RAINBOW OF OWN-VOICE AUTHORS!

“You write in order to change the world… if you alter, even by a millimetre, the way people look at reality, then you can change it.” ― James Baldwin

WHILE ANY time is the right time to feature Own Voice authors, PRIDE MONTH is an especially poignant juncture to celebrate these stories that speak from lived experience. Regardless of whether a work resonates with me (and I’ll readily admit many don’t), I firmly believe that anyone should have the freedom to create, to use their imagination, to write what they wish. Sweet and Spicy. Moderate and Graphic. And everything in between. 

That said, I’m a strong proponent of the view that creators (and I’m talking writers here for the sake of this article) must delve into the real lives and experiences of others with care, research, respect, and empathy. I’m not into lazy stereotyping, torture porn narratives, or blatant exploitation of lives and lived experiences for sensationalist writing to get “noticed.”

Oh, and effort is great, but I’d love some talent too.

There’s something uniquely powerful about Own Voice authors sharing pieces of themselves through their work—stories informed by the communities they belong to, the cultures that shaped them, and the identities through which they move through the world. Those perspectives bring an emotional authenticity that can’t be replicated with the same potency; they carry the weight of real joys, fears, failures, and triumphs.

As a gay author and reader, I’m continually drawn to stories that reflect the many facets of gay/queer life, whether they’re grounded in reality or wrapped in fantasy, horror, romance, or something delightfully difficult to categorize.

For Pride Month, I’m once again highlighting gay/queer male Own Voice authors—this time featuring 12 of them—and highlighting one of their books through the colours of the traditional Rainbow Pride flag. If I included every colour and meaning attached to the current Progress Pride Flag, this post would rapidly become a novel. Each book’s cover corresponds to one of the rainbow colours, while the story itself reflects the sentiment, emotion, or value traditionally associated with that colour.

What I love about this approach is that it allows me to celebrate both the diversity of Own Voice storytelling and the deeply personal ways we connect with books as readers. Sometimes a novel resonates because it mirrors our own experiences; sometimes it does the opposite, introducing us to perspectives and life journeys we’ve never considered, thought would interest us, or knew would make us uncomfortable. The most satisfying and the most frustrating stories do both.

Here’s a shocking statement: There’s no single, universal gay/queer way to exist. (Could you sense my sarcasm?) With Own Voices work, as a reader, you quickly discover that there’s more to the story than narrative verisimilitude, more than a “sense of believability”; there’s an inherent element of emotional and psychological truth. 🏳️‍🌈 Pride has always been about visibility, community, resilience, and joy. What better way to honour that than by uplifting the voices telling their own stories? And like last time, I’m not selecting from among the authors of HAUNTED HEARTS because they’re all amazing authors, and you should read everything in that Own Voice series (the first two junctures featuring my novels The Night Belongs To Lovers and I Will Always Find You). Categories have 2 authors each because 1 just isn’t enough. Neither is 2, but I digress.

RED: LIFE

MATTHEW DANTE

I’ve been a fan (and friend) of author and fellow Canadian Matthew Dante for a while now. His fiction ranges from heartfelt contemporary romances to dark, suspense-driven narratives that delve into obsession, manipulation, violence, trauma, and the complex realities of human relationships and sexuality. In his darker works, themes of survival emerge not as abstract concepts, but as responses to genuine danger—both physical and emotional—as characters navigate threats, secrets, betrayal, and the consequences of desire. Dante creates thrilling, cinematic, often erotic stories that centre gay/queer men with emotional honesty, nuance, and unapologetic visibility.

His novel, LAYING CLAIM (Rough Edges #1), embodies LIFE through MMC Mickey’s struggle to reconcile the expectations placed upon him with the life he truly wants. As he balances loyalty, identity, secrecy, and same-sex desire, the novel explores what it means to live authentically while facing the pressure to hide parts of oneself you fear will cost you too much to embrace openly.

Against a backdrop of organized crime, shifting allegiances, and escalating danger, Seth Richards is drawn from a routine surveillance job into violent interrogation and an unexpected emotional entanglement with Mickey O’Brien. The result is a thriller-tinged gay romance where survival, desire, and identity are inextricably bound.

Ultimately, the novel reflects the Pride flag’s theme of LIFE as vitality and growth—the difficult, ongoing process of choosing authenticity in environments that reward concealment. Mickey’s journey becomes one of survival not just in a physical sense, but in an emotional and identity-driven one, where living fully means refusing to fracture himself into acceptable (for others) and hidden parts.

In that refusal, the story finds its central pulse: that to live is not only to endure, but to claim the right to desire, to feel, and to exist without apology.

To connect with Matthew Dante, follow him on FacebookInstagram, Bluesky, and TikTok.

Laying Claim (Rough Edges Book 1) is available for purchase at Barnes & Noble, amazon.caamazon.com.

NANDO GRAY 

Nestled deep within the mist-shrouded wilderness of Washington State’s Olympic National Forest, dark romance author Nando Gray spends his days weaving intense, emotionally charged gay/queer love stories that truly convey the Own Voice experience. He puts his characters through impossible trials, crafting heart-pounding adventures filled with passion, danger, and hard-won happily-ever-afters.

Gray specializes in M/M fantasy, excelling in Sci-Fi and historical narratives. His novels blend high-stakes emotion with unforgettable gay/queer romances, proving that love can flourish even in the darkest circumstances.

His storytelling is marked by a focus on psychological depth, moral complexity, and the enduring resilience of connection in worlds defined by conflict and uncertainty.

In his novel CENTURION, Gray presents LIFE not simply as a story of empires, battles, or historical forces, but as a series of deeply human connections. While Rome may be falling, the novel suggests that love, compassion, and personal growth can endure long after political power has vanished. Through the journeys of MMCs Cato and Alaric, Centurion explores life as a search for meaning, the tension between choice and destiny, and the transformative power of love. Their evolving bond becomes a lens through which larger questions of loyalty, identity, and survival are examined against the backdrop of a collapsing world.

Ultimately, the novel argues that what gives life purpose is not power, conquest, or glory, but the relationships we forge and the humanity we choose to embrace. The emotional stakes are as vast as the empire itself, yet the story remains grounded in intimate moments of trust, vulnerability, and resilience. (And that cover model… damn!)

To connect with Nando Gray, follow him on Instagram and Facebook. Also, check out his linktr.ee.

Centurion is available for purchase at amazon.ca and amazon.com.

ORANGE: HEALING

PAUL MONETTE

Growing up in a small New England town during the 1950s, Paul Monette (October 16, 1945 – February 10, 1995) seemed destined for success. A gifted student and accomplished writer, he excelled academically and socially, earning a reputation as the town’s “perfect Paul.” Yet beneath that polished exterior lay a truth he struggled to understand and accept.

As he journeyed through the privileged world of the Ivy League, explored life abroad, and navigated relationships marked by longing, secrecy, and heartbreak, Monette wrestled with the expectations placed upon him and the reality of his identity. Haunted by the absence of visible models for same-sex love, he searched for what he once described as “the thing I’d never even seen: two men in love and laughing.”

The term “Own Voices” was coined long after Monette’s work was published, yet his writing embodies its core principles. In his memoir, BECOMING A MAN: HALF A LIFE STORY, he chronicles the realities of growing up gay, coming out, finding love, and living through the AIDS crisis. These stories are not imagined from an outside perspective; they are rooted in his personal experiences and the communities he belonged to.

I discovered Paul Monette during my first year at university, just one year before his death due to AIDS. The first man I ever kissed—a much older teaching assistant (not mine, and that’s as far as it went, but still… WOW!)—gave me this book as one of my first introductions to gay culture. There is no “Blurb” that can properly describe this work, but I can say that Becoming a Man is a powerful memoir of self-discovery, resilience, and the courage it takes to embrace one’s authentic self.

From a contemporary perspective, Becoming a Man illustrates that HEALING is not the erasure of pain but the process of integrating it into a fuller understanding of oneself. In the book, Monette does not pretend that prejudice, loneliness, or loss never happened. Instead, he shows how honesty, love, and self-acceptance can transform wounds into sources of strength.

Becoming a Man: Half a Life Story can be purchased at Barnes & Noble, Indigo, amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

MICHAEL ROBERT 

Here’s the thing about Michael Robert: he can write a setting, a community, and a whole cast of people who feel like they’ve always lived in the worlds he creates. He has the power to really capture true-to-life narratives. That sense of authenticity carries into his portrayal of gay/queer relationships in all their beauty and mess, especially his age-gap gay (or M/M) love stories. He approaches them with care and emotional honesty, focusing on the lived reality of connection rather than reducing it to a trope. The relationships he writes feel grounded—shaped by difference, yes, but also by tenderness, mutual recognition, and the complexity of two people choosing each other.

In his own life, Robert is in a relationship with fellow author Garry Michael (who I’m also featuring), and the age difference between them provides him with insight into how such a relationship, notably between two men, can unfold and flow. This real-world experience absolutely informs the emotional texture of his writing in the best way.

Robert’s novel, SUDDENLY LAST SUMMER, doesn’t treat HEALING as something neat or easily resolved, but as a gradual process of returning to oneself after emotional fracture. His characters carry histories of hurt, silence, and longing, yet the story allows those experiences to surface rather than be buried, showing that acknowledgement is often the first step toward repair.

In that slow unfolding, connection becomes the quiet force that drives change. Moments of honesty, vulnerability, and unexpected understanding enable the characters to begin rebuilding what was broken—and what never truly had the chance to begin. Rather than erasing the past, they learn how to live alongside it, recognizing that while time does heal, memory remains. In this way, Suddenly Last Summer embodies HEALING as something lived, ongoing, and imperfectly human, especially for gay/queer people.

To connect with Michael Robert, follow him on Instagram and Facebook, and check out his linktr.ee.

Suddenly Last Summer is available for purchase at amazon.ca and amazon.com.

YELLOW: SUNLIGHT

RICHARD WILLET 

Richard Willett is a Canadian-American fiction writer, playwright, and screenwriter. He was born in Hollywood, California, where, shortly after his birth, Willett’s family moved to Vancouver, Canada, where he spent much of his childhood and formative years. As a young adult, he moved to New York City. Growing up in Vancouver, Willett was exposed to both Canadian and American cultural influences, which later informed his creative work in fiction and dramatic writing. I have the Facebook group Gay Men Loving Gay Books to thank for bringing this author to my attention. I promptly purchased his novel, which I’m about to discuss.

Willett has discussed his connection to Edmund White (January 13, 1940 – June 3, 2025), both personally—having met him in the early 1980s—and as a creative influence in gay/queer fiction. Both authors embody the power of Own Voice storytelling, drawing upon their lived experiences to create authentic portrayals of gay/queer life, especially from the vantage point of pre-millennial LGBTQ+ experience. Even if, like Paul Monette, White’s early work was written long before we embraced this modern term, it nevertheless exemplifies the spirit of Own Voice literature.

Willett’s novel, A FRIEND OF DOROTHY’S represents SUNLIGHT—optimism, clarity, and positivity—because it insists on illuminating what was once obscured by fear, stigma, and silence. Set against the backdrop of 1980s Vancouver and New York City during the AIDS crisis, the novel follows Eric, a gay man shaped by self-isolation and emotional restraint, as he moves through the aftermath of the sexual liberation era into the years reshaped by the epidemic. In that context, this aspect of the Pride Flag emerges as a symbolic counterforce: a steady, human light that makes it possible to see clearly even in moments of grief and uncertainty.

The story does not treat queerness as abstraction or stereotype; instead, it brings emotional precision to Eric’s longing for connection and his struggle to reconcile desire with fear. Even when the narrative inevitably enters dark territory—illness, loss, and social fragmentation—it maintains a thread of awareness and reflection. That clarity mirrors the meaning of the Pride flag’s yellow stripe: not naïve happiness, but the ability to understand truthfully and without distortion.

Eric’s experiences, particularly through his relationship with his friend Dale and the progression of AIDS in their community, force an honest confrontation with mortality and belonging. Yet the novel’s emotional core is not only tragedy, bit recognition. It asks the reader to see gay/queer lives fully, without euphemism or erasure, and in doing so, it restores visibility where there was once avoidance.

Optimism here is not an ending but a way of seeing: even in isolation, there is understanding, and even in suffering, meaning can emerge. Eric’s shift from withdrawal toward emotional awareness becomes a form of clarity earned through experience. The novel acknowledges pain without letting it have the final word, offering a restrained, hard-won positivity rooted in a clear-eyed acceptance of life as it is, beauty and cruelty, fairness and suffering.

To connect with Richard Willett, follow him on Facebook and visit his website.

A Friend of Dorothy’s is available for purchase at Indigo, Barnes & Noble, Smashwords, amazon.ca and amazon.com.

ERIC DAVID ROMAN

Okay, so, I’m about to contradict myself here because Eric is, in fact, a Haunted Hearts author. Hear me out! His queer horror novel, LONG NIGHT AT LAKE NEVER, is one of the first books I ever reviewed on my BLOG, and Eric is the first author I ever interviewed, Own Voice or otherwise. So I’m giving my friend special treatment. A native of Florida, Eric now resides in Northern Virginia with his husband. He loves all things horror, queer, and campy. He’s also one of the first gay/queer male fiction writers I connected with when I published my first novel, Vindictive, and began using social media as a marketing and outreach tool.

When I think of Own Voice authors, Eric immediately comes to mind. He’s unafraid to write explicitly gay/queer male characters and relationships, especially within the horror genre, where such representation has often been limited or marginalized. His romances are beautiful, bold, and often messy, marked by intense, passionate homoeroticism.

Long Night at Lake Never embodies SUNLIGHT in a decidedly unconventional way. While the novel’s cover prominently features yellow—the colour associated with SUNLIGHT and represented in the Pride flag—the story itself plunges readers into darkness. Set at Camp Horizons, a conversion camp on the shores of Lake Never, the novel follows recently outed Tyler Wills as he navigates religious persecution, queer resilience, and a deadly slasher stalking the campgrounds. The contrast between the bright symbolism of the cover and the horrors lurking within underscores one of the novel’s central themes: the search for hope, identity, and survival in places determined to extinguish them.

Yet it is within the novel’s very setting that the tenets of Pride’s SUNLIGHT—optimism, clarity, and positivity—shine brightest, pun intended. Amid the darkness of conversion therapy and slasher horror, the story celebrates queer resilience, self-acceptance, and the determination to survive. It’s about seeing the light through the darkness and holding onto the hope of emerging safely on the other side. Yes, hopefully—as I said, it’s horror, after all. Eric’s novel is what They/Them wished it was.

To connect with Eric David Roman on Facebook, Instagram and Bluesky.

Long Night At Lake Never is available for purchase at Smashwords, amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

GREEN: NATURE

WILLIAM HUSSEY 

William Hussey is a British writer whose work often focuses on LGBTQ+ identity, emotional authenticity, and the experiences of gay/queer people across both contemporary and historical settings. Speaking of that, one of the most striking aspects of his writing is how he bridges time periods while keeping gay/queer identity at the centre of his stories. This is part of what makes his work so powerful as Own Voice storytelling: even in a historical setting, the emotional reality of gay/queer experience is rendered with immediacy and care, avoiding stereotypes or distance; it’s all still so relatable.

As a result, Hussey stands as a compelling example of why Own Voice narratives matter. His work does not just represent LGBTQ+ characters; it centres their humanity, their complexity, and their truth(s). Whether set in the present or the past, his writing affirms that gay/queer love has always existed, always endured, and always deserved to be seen with dignity.

The green stripe of the Pride flag represents NATURE, symbolizing growth, life, authenticity, and the idea that LGBTQ+ identities are a natural part of human diversity. Hussey’s THE BOY I LOVE beautifully embodies these themes through its portrayal of love, resilience, and self-acceptance.

Set during the First World War, the novel follows nineteen-year-old Stephen, a young officer returning to the trenches after suffering both physical and emotional wounds. Still grieving the loss of his first love, Stephen struggles to find purpose amid the horrors of war. Everything changes when he meets Private Danny McCormick, a talented and intelligent recruit with whom he forms an immediate and powerful connection.

One of the strongest ways the novel reflects the green stripe is by portraying their love as natural—which gay/queer love absolutely is. Although both society and the military condemn Stephen and Danny’s relationship, Hussey presents their feelings as genuine, instinctive, and deeply human.

The term “normalize” carries problematic implications, so instead I’ll say that Hussey beautifully portrays gay/queer love as an inherent part of the vastness of human experience, presenting it without apology or spectacle. Genuine romantic affection emerges naturally between two men who find comfort, understanding, and hope in each other amid extraordinary and dangerous circumstances. Stephen and Danny’s relationship represents growth, hope, resilience, and authenticity in the face of immense challenges. Their story reminds readers that love, like NATURE itself, has the power to endure and thrive even in the bleakest of circumstances.

To connect with William Hussey, follow him on TikTok, Instagram, Facebook , and Bluesky. Also, check out his website.

The Boy I Love is available for purchase on amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

DAVID KINGSTON YEH

David Kingston Yeh’s fiction draws deeply from his lived experience as an Asian-Canadian gay man, husband, educator, and LGBTQ+ counsellor in Toronto. Holding an MA in Cultural Sociology from Queen’s University and having spent more than twenty years working with gay/queer and trans communities, Yeh absolutely brings authenticity to his writing that resonates throughout the Boy at the Edge Trilogy. His novels explore the complexities of gay/queer identity, desire, intimacy, friendship, and belonging through the eyes of Daniel Garneau, a young gay man coming of age in Toronto.

As an Own Voice writer, Yeh’s work reflects the stories, struggles, joys, and discoveries he has encountered both in his own life and through years of supporting LGBTQ+ youth and adults. The result is a literary realism that refuses to look away from moments of gay/queer intimacy, offering readers affirming, nuanced, and deeply human portrayals of LGBTQ+ lives.

This connection is particularly evident in THE B-SIDE OF DANIEL GARNEAU, the concluding novel of the trilogy. The novel can be meaningfully associated with the green stripe of the Pride flag, NATURE, which symbolizes growth, renewal, and flourishing. By the third book, Daniel’s journey has evolved beyond the uncertainty and misadventures of youth into a deeper understanding of himself and his place in the world. As the symbolism of the green stripe suggests, the novel reflects personal growth, emotional maturation, and the organic process of becoming one’s authentic self.

Toronto’s diverse neighbourhoods, communities, and social spaces serve as fertile ground for this development, reinforcing the idea that gay/queer life is not one thing or one way, but richly varied and continually shaped through connection, experience, and self-discovery. In The B-Side of Daniel Garneau, Daniel’s search for love, family, and belonging reaches a stage of greater self-acceptance, mirroring the green stripe’s celebration of resilience and the natural unfolding of one’s gay/queer identity.

Yeh’s work is not only a chronicle of one character’s journey but also a testament to the growth, healing, and vitality found within the greater LGBTQ+ community.

To connect with David Kingston Yeh, follow him on Instagram and Facebook; also, check out his website.

The B-Side of Daniel Garneau is available for purchase at Indigo, Barnes & Noble, amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

BLUE/INDIGO: SERENITY/HARMONY

BRAD BONEY 

An Austin-based novelist, Brad Boney’s fiction consistently asks a profound question: How do the intimate, both platonic and romantic, relationships of gay/queer people create continuity across distance, time, and circumstance? Instead of viewing these experiences merely as self-disclosure, Boney often perceives them as a form of expansive connection—among brothers, lovers, generations, communities, and even across centuries.

His work turns gay/queer life far more into an architecture of interconnected relationships rather than a declaration of identity.

Boney’s “Austin Series” is quite possibly my favourite Own Voice series ever. For this BLOG post, however, I’m shifting my focus to a stand-alone novel of his where the perspective I mentioned above is also especially evident: BROTHERS ACROSS TIME, a sprawling time-travel novel that links contemporary Austin with sixteenth-century Venice through an enchanted gondola, twin brothers, separated families, and multiple love stories. The novel’s emotional center is not rebellion or conflict but reunion. Characters cross centuries not to escape themselves but to find one another and, in turn, even understand themselves better. The story repeatedly returns to acts of reconciliation, kinship, and the preservation of bonds that history, geography, and time try to sever.

Not only does the novel’s cover colouring fit perfectly here, but, seen through the symbolism of the Pride flag’s blue/indigo stripe, which embodies SERENITY/HARMONY, we truly connect with why I chose this novel. This colour is the one most associated with balance rather than spectacle, which is precisely why it fits Boney’s novel. The book is filled with potentially chaotic elements: time travel, twins separated across centuries, shifting identities, romance, and historical upheaval. Yet the narrative impulse is always toward balance. The magical gondola functions less as a vehicle of adventure than as a mechanism of restoration, aligning fractured lives. The novel suggests that SERENITY/HARMONY isn’t the absence of difference but the ability of differences to coexist across time, culture, and experience.

In this sense, Boney’s approach to Own Voice storytelling feels distinct. Many gay/queer narratives are understandably preoccupied with crossing boundaries. Brothers Across Time is more interested in building bridges after those boundaries have been crossed. The novel’s romances are part of a larger story about family, belonging, and staying connected to the people who matter most. At its heart, the story isn’t really about escaping limits or chasing endless freedom. It’s about finding your way back to one another.

Whether it’s brothers reunited, lovers finding each other, or people reaching across centuries, the story keeps returning to the idea that relationships can endure despite distance, time, and circumstance. The past and the future don’t have to be in conflict; in Boney’s world, they can coexist, connected by the bonds people create. In his storytelling, reincarnation, soul mates, and time travel are profound agents of connection for his gay/queer characters. 

In Pride Flag terms, Boney’s novel is not a flash of red passion or orange vitality—it’s the blue/indigo current running beneath the story, carrying people toward one another until their lives finally come into balance.

To connect with Brad Boney follow him on Facebook check out his website: bradboney.com.

Brothers Across Time is available for purchase at Indigo.ca, amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

SIMON DOYLE

Simon Doyle has stated that his fiction is shaped by the absence of gay/queer narratives in mainstream stories during his upbringing, and by his later desire to create them. That impulse—writing both of himself and to his younger self—runs through his work as both motivation and method. In his fiction, queerness is structured as a lens through which memory, identity, and emotional survival are examined. This Own Voice approach positions his storytelling where lived experience becomes not just inspiration but a formal influence on how stories are told and what kinds of emotional truths are given breath and made vivid and tangible on the page.

In his novel THIS IS NOT A VAMPIRE STORY, Doyle reconfigures the Gothic tradition into something quieter, more interior, and more reflective. Victor Callahan, a vampire frozen at seventeen, is not rendered as a figure of horror but as a vessel for suspended time—an embodiment of memory that cannot decay or resolve. The novel’s dual timelines, shifting between mid-century Ireland and a present-day care facility, emphasize how love and grief refuse linear containment. Rather than using vampirism to heighten spectacle, Doyle uses it to explore gay/queer endurance: the way affection survives secrecy, and the way loss becomes a permanent architecture of the self.

Within this framework, the novel’s emotional atmosphere aligns closely with the symbolism of the Pride flag’s blue/indigo stripe: SERENITY/HARMONY. Victor’s experience is not defined by chaos or overt rebellion, but by a sustained, almost meditative awareness of his own being—an existence very much outside of time and death as humans experience them. The love he shares with James O’Carroll, constrained by the criminalization and stigma of mid-century Ireland, becomes a study in quiet devotion and restrained longing. Even in separation, their connection persists not as active drama but as emotional resonance, suggesting that gay/queer experience often exists in the subtler spaces of memory, reflection, and unspoken continuity.

Ultimately, Doyle’s work suggests that SERENITY/HARMONY isn’t the absence of pain but the ability to live alongside it without erasure. In This is Not a Vampire Story, immortality becomes less a supernatural condition than a metaphor for emotional persistence, the refusal of love to fully disappear even when time demands it. The novel’s Pride blue/indigo sensibility lies in this power: a harmony forged not through resolution, but through remembrance. In reimagining the vampire as a figure of quiet reflection rather than monstrosity, Doyle offers a narrative where gay/queer experience is held with care, depth, and a lingering sense of peace within grief.

To connect with Simon Doyle, follow him on Instagram, Facebook, Bluesky, and visit his Website.

This is Not A Vampire Story is available for purchase at Indigo, amazon.ca, and amazon.com.

VIOLET/PURPLE: SPIRIT

TALBOT FINCH

Talbot Finch is a gay author and artist who previously lived in the southeastern United States and now resides in the UK with his husband. His fiction explores the LGBTQ+ experience through romance, fantasy, and Gothic horror, often blending rich atmosphere with emotionally complex characters and immersive storytelling. Across his writing, he focuses on identity, connection, and the tension between desire and constraint, creating narratives that are both evocative and thought-provoking while inviting readers into vividly imagined worlds.

In his debut novel, VIOLET REVERIE, which comfortably sits in my top 10 favourite books of all time, Finch draws on gay/queer identity not as a decorative element or subtextual layer, but as a structural force shaping character psychology, conflict, and emotional stakes. Rather than positioning queerness as an exception within a heteronormative template, the novel treats it as an ordinary, fully realized mode of desire and selfhood operating within a historically restrictive setting. This matters in the discussion of the poignancy (and necessity) of Own Voice writing because the text resists the idea that gay/queer stories must be translated into traditional legibility for outside gazes/consumers (or “straight”) before they can be told.

At the same time, Finch’s approach is careful not to reduce authenticity to autobiography. Instead, the Own Voice framework functions more as a matter of tonal and ethical alignment than of direct replication of lived events. The emotional logic of characters like Nathan—his constrained autonomy, mental fragmentation, and institutional misdiagnosis—feels informed by an awareness of how gay/queer bodies have historically been medically and psychologically controlled and constrained, even if filtered through Gothic fiction conventions. In that sense, Finch is working within genre traditions while subtly correcting them from the inside, using the vocabulary of nineteenth-century melodrama to expose how those same structures encoded homosexuality as instability, excess, or “hysteria.”

Violet Reverie embodies the Pride flag’s violet/purple stripe SPIRIT though its reflective tone and its emphasis on inner life as a site of imagination, resistance, and transformation. The story lingers in moments of quiet connection and emotional clarity, where characters navigate vulnerability, trust, and the longing for stability within uncertain circumstances.

Rather than relying on external spectacle, Finch leans into a calm yet resonant emotional undercurrent, allowing relationships and self-understanding to unfold with steadiness and care. He also suggests that strength comes from within, helping people navigate pressure, challenge expectations, and stay true to themselves.

The novel’s atmosphere—its emotional intensity and Gothic ambiguity—refuses to treat gay/queer love as either tragedy or novelty. Instead, it frames intimacy between Nathan and Peter as almost metaphysical: a force that unsettles yet sustains, and perhaps was meant to be.

That spiritual quality isn’t separate from physical and mental suffering, but it challenges the notion that LGBTQ+ narratives must resolve in loss to feel serious or poignant.

Finch’s contribution to the Own Voices discourse lies in his insistence on a spectrum of gay/queer emotional possibility. The romance in Violet Reverie is tender without being sanitized, romantic without being naïve, and rooted in historical constraint without being defined by it. In doing so, Finch expands the possibilities of gay/queer-authored Gothic fiction, particularly in how it balances agency, desire, and psychological complexity.

If the violet/purple stripe in the Pride flag suggests imagination and SPIRIT as resistance, then Finch’s work demonstrates how storytelling itself can become a space where gay/queer life isn’t merely endured but actively re-envisioned in a positive light.

To connect with Talbot Finch, follow him on Instagram & Facebook. Also, visit his Website.

Violet Reverie is available for purchase at amazon.ca and amazon.com.

GARRY MICHAEL

Garry Michael is a writer of MM romance fiction, often exploring darker, erotic themes, but typically with a HEA. He’s well known for his methodical plotting, atmospheric storytelling, and vivid, emotionally charged imagery. He’s developed a strong readership through series such as “Men in the Shadows,” which follows sexy, professionally trained male assassins. He often collaborates with his husband, fellow M/M romance author Michael Robert, whom I’ve featured in the Pride flag colour Orange: Healing, and together they write under the collective name “The Husbands Who Write,” including their co-authored anthology of novellas, Unexpected.

Garry, like his husband, creates unapologetically homoerotic narratives, utilizing a variety of tropes, including age gap, domination, found family, and one of my favourites, “touch him and die!” He explores gay/queer (though we don’t exclusively own these, but anyway…) sexual conventions such as edging, wax play, orgasm control, and aggressive (but fun) anal intercourse (which is a more clinical way of saying ass-fucking). Are you a bottom, top, or versatile? Or do you prefer being a “side?” (I can’t forget you guys).

When it comes to the Pride flag’s violet/purple stripe, representing SPIRIT, I’m forever drawn to interpretations that exist outside religion and instead speak to something deeply human: inner strength, emotional depth, resilience, and a steadfast sense of self. Different interpretations obviously exist, but SPIRIT, for me, reflects what holds a person together when the outside world is confusing, limiting, or even hostile. It represents that inner fire that LGBTQ+ people so often have to protect, cultivate, express, or reclaim over the course of their lives. It’s a quality I recognize in Michael’s work.

His novel THE CULT (Men in the Shadows #2) is far more than just a sequence of thrilling and sensual events; it’s a deeply personal story about what occurs within a person who engages with these dramatic, explosive, and self-revealing homoerotic situations. At its core, the book feels like it’s exploring identity under pressure. The characters are placed in environments where control, secrecy, or expectation tries to shape who they are. And what stood out to me isn’t just how they respond externally, but how much of the struggle is internal. It’s about what gets suppressed, what refuses to disappear, and what quietly survives even when it’s not safe to express it openly.

This theme is frequently repeated in gay and M/M fiction. Many of the novels I’ve featured utilize this theme, but how can we, as Own Voice authors, truly escape it? It’s a part of our shared identity, our experience(s) as gay/queer men in a society that’s too often unaccommodating; we have to create our own space within it.

Michael approaches this with intense homoerotic passion, looking inward and exploring our own sexual energy, our SPIRIT, you might say—embracing who we are as gay/queer men and celebrating our same-sex desires.

To connect with Garry Michael, follow him on Instagram Facebook.

The Cult (Men in the Shadows #2) is available for purchase at amazon.ca and amazon.com.

I could easily have doubled—or even tripled—this list and still left deserving authors off. That’s one of the joys of gay fiction and queer literature: there isn’t a single story, genre, identity, or experience that defines us. There never has been. We, as gay/queer people, are as different as we are alike. Pride is about visibility, but it’s also about listening, learning, celebrating, and occasionally having our assumptions and prejudgments thoroughly dismantled by a really good book. If any of these titles catch your eye, I encourage you to give them a try. You might find a reflection of yourself or discover a life entirely different from your own, but you will definitely find a fantastic story. Happy Pride Month! 🌈📚 Oh, and leave a comment if you like.

Gay Comix/Comics: A Groundbreaking Queer Comic Book Series

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!🏳️‍🌈

SO HERE’S the thing: queer characters existed in comic book form long before mainstream superhero books finally caught up. Unambiguous LGBTQ+ representation in comics predates both Flash villain-turned-ally Hartley Rathaway’s (The Pied Piper) declaration of his homosexuality in DC Comics’ The Flash Vol. 2 #53 (Aug 1991) and fellow Canadian Jean-Paul Beaubier’s (Northstar) coming out in Marvel Comics’ Alpha Flight Vol. 1 #106 (Mar 1992).

There was some overt stereotyping of earlier superhero/villain characters to hint that they were queer, such as the flamboyant DC character, Extraño (Gregorio de la Vega), with his stereotypically gay mannerisms and sass, who first appeared in Millennium #2 (Jan 1988). And then there’s Marvel’s Mystique and Destiny, who, in 1980s X-Men comics, were shown to live together, raised a child together (Rogue, from her early teens), and display a level of emotional intimacy that many readers, myself included, interpreted as romantic. However, confirmation of this relationship would not come for decades.

In the mid-20th century, explicit queer representation was largely prohibited in mainstream American comics because of the Comics Code Authority, which discouraged or banned depictions of homosexuality. As a result, queer readers often found meaning in subtext—characters who felt different, concealed parts of themselves, or struggled to belong, like the mutant X-Men. Superheroes in particular resonated with many LGBTQ+ readers because of themes of dual identities, secrecy, and self-acceptance.

As censorship loosened in the 1990s, creators began introducing LGBTQ+ characters openly. Today, queer characters can be found across major publishers, including Marvel and DC. Characters such as Northstar, Batwoman, Shatterstar, Apollo, Midnighter, Nubia, Wiccan, and Hulkling have become important symbols of queer visibility. Even Superman and Batman have queer sons, in Jon Kent and Tim Drake, both of whom declared their bisexuality a few years back.

Beyond representation, comics have also served as a medium of queer expression. Independent and underground comics have explored LGBTQ+ themes long before mainstream publishers were willing to do so. Artists used the format to tell personal stories about coming out, relationships, discrimination, joy, and community—queer experiences that were overlooked in traditional media.

None did it better than GAY COMIX, later renamed GAY COMICS, a deliciously transgressive series I discovered long after it had ceased publication.

Several years ago, I found six issues of this series in the clearance section of one of my local comic stores. To say I was shocked that such a series even existed would be an understatement. Of course, I immediately grabbed them. The second time I discovered them “in the wild” was at another local comic book store that had purchased someone’s personal collection. When I found four issues during my bin-diving, I “gay gasped.” I would have loved to know who the original collector was.

Gay Comics, titled Gay Comix for the first 14 issues, was an underground series published from 1980 to 1998 by Kitchen Sink Press (1980–1984) and by Bob Ross (1985-1998), publisher of the Bay Area Reporter gay newspaper. And no, not the painter.

The idea for Gay Comix originated with Denis Kitchen, founder of Kitchen Sink Press and one of the key publishers of underground comics. In 1979, after learning that underground cartoonist Howard Cruse was gay, Kitchen approached him with an idea: edit an anthology showcasing the work of LGBTQ+ comic creators. The two were already familiar with each other’s work. Cruse’s long-running comic Barefootz had been published by Kitchen Sink Press, making him a natural choice to spearhead the project.

To find contributors, a call for submissions was published in Cascade Comix Monthly, inviting gay and lesbian cartoonists to share their stories. While the anthology focuses largely on gay and lesbian experiences, it does include stories featuring bisexual and transgender themes as well, though the terminology used in some of those comics is unsurprisingly dated.

One of the greatest strengths of Gay Comix/cs was the remarkable range of queer artists and writers who contributed to the series over its nearly two-decade run. Aside from Cruse, the anthology featured work by pioneering LGBTQ+ cartoonists such as Robert Triptow, Jennifer Camper, Andy Mangels, Ivan Velez Jr., Roberta Gregory, Alison Bechdel, Mary Wings, Marc Lynx, and Rupert Kinnard, among many others.

Sadly, there are only 25 issues in this groundbreaking series, spanning its eighteen-year run. And though much of the early content is autobiographical, later editions explored a broader, more diverse range of queer themes and narratives. A few issues of the series contained superhero-themed stories, which were generally humour-driven. The content of Gay Comix/cs primarily focused on depicting gay relationships, personal experiences, and humour rather than being centred around sexual content. This was something Cruse was adamant about. Aware that gay people were frequently portrayed as caricatures in popular culture, defined solely by who they had sex with, Cruse sought to publish comics that highlighted the humanity, diversity, and everyday experiences of queer people.

That said, there are definitely sexually charged narratives and images to be found in the series. Not every issue will appeal to every reader. Stories touch on subjects that readers may find challenging, uncomfortable, or particularly meaningful, including homophobia, polyamory and monogamy, infidelity, gender expression, and the use of, as I mentioned earlier, now-dated terminology. There truly is something in this series for every queer person—whether to relate to, discover, or be offended by. That’s simply the reality of a collection this diverse. And I’ve experienced all three of those reactions myself, reading these comics.

While I have many favourite issues, I want to shine a spotlight on Gay Comix #11 (Dec 1987) and Gay Comics #25 (April 1998), the final issue of the series.

Issue #11 features a cover by writer and artist Robert Triptow, whose work in the 1980s and 1990s helped shape early visibility for queer narratives in sequential art. Triptow became involved with Gay Comix/cs early in its run, first contributing with issue #2. Over time, he took on a more central editorial role, succeeding Howard Cruse as editor and overseeing issues #5 through #13 between 1984 and 1991. During this period, the series continued to evolve as a key platform for queer cartoonists, balancing personal storytelling, political commentary, and experimental comic forms.

Beyond his editorial work on the series, Triptow also edited the 1989 anthology Gay Comics, which is often cited as one of the earliest efforts to document queer life through cartooning and comics history. The anthology was recognized with the first Lambda Literary Award for Humour, marking an important moment in the formal acknowledgement of LGBTQ+ contributions to literature and comics.

Earlier in his career, Triptow worked as assistant to publisher David B. Goodstein at The Advocate, placing him close to significant developments in gay media and activism during a pivotal era. In that context, he was indirectly connected to the historical period surrounding gay rights leader Harvey Milk, whose legacy became emblematic of the broader struggle for LGBTQ+ rights. In later years, Triptow expressed interest in reviving Gay Comix/cs as a series of trade paperback collections under a new publisher. In 2009 and again in 2013, he described plans to reintroduce the material as a platform for queer cartoonists, though those plans have not yet resulted in a published relaunch.

Today, Gay Comix/cs #11 is often viewed within the broader context of the series’ editorial evolution under Triptow’s stewardship—an era defined by expanding representation, archival intent, and the gradual shaping of a queer comics tradition that continues to influence creators today.

Now, on to issue #25 with cover art by the amazingly talented Craig Hamilton. And on the cover is a little cheeky gay play on Batman and Robin, or perhaps the Kryptonian heroes Nightwing and Flamebird. Either way, I’m into it.

There are two interesting elements surrounding this last issue I want to touch on. First, in the story “Clone Ranger” by Howard Stangroom, a gay Rawhide Kid makes a brief appearance (like one panel!). Now, the blond-haired Rawhide Kid first appeared in 1955 in his self-titled book from Atlas Comics. However, the version most people know is the revamped red-headed hottie who debuted in Marvel Comics’ Rawhide Kid #17 (Aug 1960), a continuation of Atlas’ numbering.

Marvel’s Rawhide Kid was updated from his Silver Age Western comics and later Bronze/Modern Age Avengers appearances, redesigning him as a gay character in the Wild West for a new-millennium audience.

In a 2003 miniseries that featured art and innuendo akin to this one-page story here in Gay Comics, he subsequently “came out.” Now, despite the beefcake, highly phallic, and suggestive 1st issue cover, the queerness in that Marvel miniseries was anything but overt. Nice try. Still, it’s a great “fun-fact.”

Let’s take a look at a vastly more poignant feature from issue #25. I want to highlight the story “That Was Then, This Is Now… a story of a future without AIDS” by Marc Lynx, which is dedicated to comic book editor, art director, and writer Neal Pozner. Neal was one of the few out gay comic creators at the time, who passed away due to AIDS in 1994 at the age of 39. Before joining DC Comics’ staff, Pozner designed the first gay-themed bus ads for New York City as well as several posters for Lincoln Center. He was also responsible for incorporating DC Comics characters into a series of AIDS awareness house ads published in the company’s comics. He was a truly amazing talent and man.

Lynx’s story is a continuation of one from issue #24, and was billed as “to be continued,” but since this was the last issue of Gay Comics, the next instalment was unfortunately never released.

The comic book art form and queer culture both recognize the power of imagination. They’ve created spaces for individuals who feel different, who question dominant social norms, and who celebrate the idea that identity can be discovered, embraced, and expressed proudly rather than concealed.

Though I don’t currently have the entire 25-issue run of Gay Comix/cs in my collection, I remain undeterred in my goal of completing it. And I’m pretty close! While I didn’t feature all 25 covers, I hope this post inspires you all to explore the series for yourself. And I would also highly recommend taking a look at the life of Howard Cruse, who passed away in 2019 at the age of 75. To call him a pioneer of gay rights and queer comics is no exaggeration.

Interview With Gay/Queer Romance Author Robert J. Halliwell

Robert J. Halliwell: “My own experiences with love and romance influence me massively. I’m not the sort of person who can write things that I have no connection to.”

AS WE celebrate Pride Month, I’m thrilled to feature an Own Voice author whose work brilliantly highlights the importance of diverse voices in fiction, including authentic gay/queer storytelling. There’s something especially meaningful about reading stories written by people who are more likely to share the identities and experiences of the characters they write about. Own Voices literature brings nuance, honesty, and emotional depth that can resonate in a completely different way, especially for LGBTQ+ readers looking to see themselves reflected on the page.

So without further ado, I’m pleased to welcome Robert J. Halliwell to the blog. Robert is a Canadian writer who crafts character-driven stories with profound emotional impact, including ones that explore gay/queer identity during adolescence.

His work often centres on themes of first love, self-discovery, and the challenges and triumphs of growing up LGBTQ+, alongside narratives which navigate deeper explorations of grief, friendship, and the richness of found family. Robert is the author of The Ties That Bind, And Then He Pressed Play: Track One, as well as its upcoming sequel, And Then He Pressed Play: Track Two. 

In this interview, Robert and I explore a range of topics, including his perspective on the complexities of separating love from romance, narrative tropes in romance fiction that irk him, queer representation in fiction, and how lived experience can shape the writing and reception of LGBTQ+ stories.

Check out my review of And Then He Pressed Play: Track One here!

Robert, looking back on your writing journey, both as a form of creative expression and as the beginning of a literary career, who or what has been your greatest source of inspiration? Was there a defining moment when you realized, “I have stories I want to tell—through my voice and my perspective”? And when writing something so emotionally open and personal, especially within gay/queer YA fiction, how do you navigate the vulnerability that comes with putting your work out into the world, along with the inevitable praise, criticism, or perhaps even the more unsettling response: indifference.

I’ve had a pretty healthy imagination for as long as I can remember. I had my share of friends when I was growing up, of course, but I was definitely the kid who was content to sit inside and read or else wander around and make up little stories as I went.

As I grew up and got a better grasp of my ABCs, I always enjoyed reading and writing. English was one of my favourite subjects largely because there was seldom any one right answer, unless you were talking about spelling or grammar (imagine my surprise to find out, as an adult, that grammar is semi-optional in prose). [You’re brave saying that to a University English graduate!😏]

So I guess a big imagination, a fondness for worlds that don’t quite exist on Earth, and liking English enough to not drop it once it stopped being compulsory all sort of led up to me trying my hand at being an author.

Your sophomore work, the gay/queer YA romance novel And Then He Pressed Play: Track One, deviates from the traditional “coming out” or “sexual awakening” storyline by introducing its protagonist, A.J., as openly gay from the very beginning. What inspired you to make this narrative choice? Did you intentionally challenge some of the familiar expectations surrounding identity and authenticity among out, closeted, and questioning teens traditionally portrayed in gay/queer YA fiction? Was A.J., as a narrative device, meant to be a counterpart to Bren’s gradual acknowledgement and acceptance of his own sexuality?

I definitely challenged some of the genre expectations/expected tropes with this one, and I’m very glad I did. Don’t get me wrong, there’s something comforting about picking up a book and knowing the general flow of the story before you even open it, but I take issue with the idea that you have to write a story like that. The world would be pretty boring if everything followed the same script.

That said, I am very much not a fan of things like the third-act breakup or a plot constantly driven by misunderstandings between friends/lovers that could be solved in 5 minutes of open conversation. When I run into the latter in stories, I definitely shake the book and scream “TALK TO EACH OTHER” and not in a fun feet-kicky way.”

As for A.J. being a narrative device as a counterpart to Bren: Not in any direct, thought-out way. I’m largely a pantser, and my core idea was “What if this weird, shy, yet oddly self-assured gay guy ran into an extroverted ball of confidence that never once stopped to question some of the deeper parts of himself.” I’m not sure if it’s pretentious or not, but I’m a very character-driven writer. It’s less “OK, what does the story do next?” and more “OK, XYZ happened, how do the characters each react to that?”

I did intend him to be a bit of an opposite to A.J. at first glance, but for them to have similar, good and kind hearts at their cores, even if they express them differently.

Robert, you lost your dad when you were 12, and you’ve mentioned that things at home were pretty unstable for a while afterwards. That personal history seems to resonate in your 2025 debut novel, The Ties That Bind, which follows 14-year-old Zoey Thompson, who is still coping with the loss of her father two years before the story begins. The novel poignantly explores navigating grief and a parent’s absence through the eyes and emotions of a young protagonist.

Did you choose to include a fantastical or supernatural element in the story to create emotional distance from such a personal, close-to-home subject? What was your thought process behind making the main character a teen girl? Was that also a way to create narrative distance from the material? And why did this story come first for you, published before A.J. and Bren’s romance?

Yeah, The Ties That Bind was basically “Healthy(?) Narrative Distance, the Novel”. As you said, a lot of that story was lifted from my life, though, again, the characters and specifics of the situation are a patchwork of formerly nonexistent bits.

I chose a female protagonist—Zoey—as part of the aforementioned distance, but another reason was that a lot of my best and closest friends at that time (in most parts of my life) were girls. I wanted to capture some of the strength, wit, and vulnerabilities I saw in the girls and women in my life at that time. I love my guy friends dearly, and again, no group is a monolith, but emotionally honest, open conversations always came more naturally for me when it wasn’t two guys talking.

As far as the magic goes, it’s just such a fun thing to play around with and immerse yourself in. I wanted magic in the novel to act as a sort of counterbalance to the grief, but one that was inseparable from said grief. It was a way to bring two girls who were going through similar circumstances together, give them a way to bond that was unique and special to them, and in Nicole’s case, the universe was throwing someone a bone for once, even if Zoey had to drag it kicking and screaming.

Not to give too much away, but going off of what I have planned after this series, ATHPP might be the outlier in its lack of magic. Other than that, mum’s the word.

The Ties That Bind was sort of a therapy for me, and naturally came before ATHPP. Even after the idea for A.J. and Bren’s story was largely formed in my mind, I wondered whether people would even want to read it, or whether I was allowed to write it because I’m not from Ireland. Turns out, people want to read it much more than Ties. And it turns out that not being from Ireland but wanting to get it as close to right as I could has led me to some amazing friendships with some wonderful Irish people.

Robert, as an openly gay Canadian writer, do you think your sexuality influences your writing in subtle, perhaps subconscious ways that naturally give it a gay/queer-centred perspective? Or are LGBTQ+ themes always a conscious creative choice?

It’s for sure always in the back of my head. All my planned books have queer characters and themes, and I wouldn’t have made that choice if I weren’t part of the rainbow crew, I’m sure. But even with my debut, I was mindful of things that I’m not sure non-queer authors would be.

As an example, Zoey’s story is one of overcoming loss and choosing connections with humans even though those connections can’t be permanent. Her sexuality doesn’t figure in, but I did speculate at times where she falls in that regard because of how much that can shape how a person acts and the decisions they make. It’s often harder to trust or confide in people when you have a giant secret part of yourself that you feel you can’t share with them out of fear of being abandoned or harmed.

As far as where Zoey falls in that regard, I’m still not really sure, but she’d be an ally at the very least. I like Zoey quite a bit.  

What is it about the romance genre, particularly regarding intimate relationships between men, that excites and inspires you? Is it simply that, as a gay man, you want to tell gay/queer stories? How do your experiences with love and relationships influence your writing?

Checking over my shoulder for pretense here, but I definitely feel myself drawn to love stories more than romance. It might be splitting hairs, or maybe it’s just a me thing, but romance stories (which I do read and enjoy) are more focused on the swoon, the “will-they-won’t-they?” trope, and on fulfilling expectations.

Love stories are more about the characters and their relationships with each other and the world around them, even when that world is cruel. The projects I have planned after ATHPP are very much love stories but not romances in my mind, though I will say ATHPP straddles the line.

Basically, I’ll always write love stories, but they won’t always be romantic.

My own experiences with love and romance influence me massively. I’m not the sort of person who can write things that I have no connection to. I’ve dealt with grief, so The Ties That Bind was born from that. I’ve experienced love and romance with someone with whom I needed a passport to be with, so ATHPP happened. 

As I continue to write, I think my books will grow further away from core things that have happened to me, but they’ll always stay linked to things that I know emotionally.

To what extent do you feel gay/queer love stories bring something uniquely different to the romance genre compared to traditional heterosexual or heteronormative narratives, including those where bi or pansexual characters are written in ways that still read as essentially straight? Should gay/queer relationships in fiction be written from a perspective that authentically reflects the realities of same-sex desire, attachment, and love, rather than feeling like characters’ genders have simply been swapped within a conventional heterosexual framework?

I might ruffle some feathers here, but the above is something I see mostly from heterosexual authors writing queer, and I’m not a fan. No group of people are a monolith, but gay men tend to have relationships that are different from gay women, who have different relationships from straight men and women and so on.

I’m not saying that someone can only write about a specific relationship if they’ve experienced it themselves. But it’s obvious to me when a story about us has been written by someone who isn’t us, or worse, hasn’t even really talked to us. There are some pretty popular stories out there that seem like good visibility and representation, but when I personally look a little closer, it just feels like people looking at their idea of us, or the parts of us they find interesting. My bitter is showing, but I feel like a lot of them would vote to take our rights away.

Back to books: our stories are unique and different and diverse, and taking a story and simply shuffling sexual, gender, and relationship identities always stands out to me, in a DNF sort of way. 

And Then He Pressed Play: Track One combines themes of tenderness and romance with elements of bullying, violence, and anti-gay hostility. The cover of your novel suggests a more lighthearted read, yet a trigger warning precedes the story to acknowledge its more solemn and grittier themes.

How did you navigate writing those darker moments to ensure they felt emotionally honest while still preserving the hopeful and playful essence of the love story?

So, full disclosure, there’s a part of me that wishes the cover nodded towards the harder stuff a little bit more (maybe a cast or a bruise?), but chalk that up to being fairly new as an author.

As far as navigating the story, I trusted myself and my characters. As I alluded to above, love is great, but it doesn’t mean the world always reflects that. It was important to me not to shy away from what the world can be like, but equally important not to focus on the wrong parts of it. We didn’t need to see the violence on the page or the cruelty in agonizing detail. That puts the focus on the person doing the harm or the harm itself. The more important element of the story was what it did to the characters and how they dealt with it.

As far as the balancing, I guess it sort of came naturally. Don’t get me wrong, I tweaked and edited and moved stuff around like every writer does, but queer joy and the harder stuff (unfortunately) go hand in hand a lot of the time. I long for a world where that’s not true, but until then, I think it’s going to be a part of any queer relationship I write in one way or another. Though maybe it’ll fade with time if I’m doing this when I’m 80 (yes please).

Music plays a poignant role in And Then He Pressed Play: Track One. It functions as more than nostalgia (as the story is set in 2006); it becomes a kind of emotional language between A.J. and Bren. When growing up, for many of us—queer or not—music often serves as an outlet for stress and anxiety, helping us make sense of the emotional whirlwind within ourselves, while also connecting us to friendships with people who share similar tastes and interests.

Was using music as a tool of narrative connection devised from the start, or something that came later? How does the book’s title factor into the creative timeline and the genesis of this theme?

Music was very much foundational to ATHPP from the beginning. I actually knew the last line of the novel before the vast majority of what happened in the middle. Why it was such a theme in the story is largely due to how I write characters. Pretty much everyone I write is a patchwork of people I’ve encountered in my life, as well as aspects of myself. If I’ve exchanged more than hello with someone, there’s a chance a piece of them will end up in a character. It’s not a one-for-one of “Oh, this character is Susan from work, and that one’s the guy I sometimes chat with at the gym,” though. The patchworking is strong, and bits of this person and that are strung together as a starting point, then bits that are fully unique to the character are added as I go.

I guess this is a really long way of saying that A.J. isn’t me, but he does share my love of music as a core truth to him, although he uses it to regulate himself a bit differently than I do.

[Below is the piano instrumental of “The Navigator,” composed by Katarzyna Kempińska. It’s A.J. and Bren’s love song from “And Then He Pressed Play: Track One.” When I asked Robert about the meaning of this song, he said: “Very much about being in love for the first time. More than infatuation or lusty feelings. Feeling, for the first time, that someone chose to be with you, even though they didn’t have to. And being brave enough to do so in return.”]

 

 

Robert, given your own connection to music and how it may have helped you cope with emotions and stress in your youth, were there specific artists, albums, or songs that influenced the writing of the novel or shaped the emotional arcs of the characters, either beyond or including those mentioned in the book, such as Evanescence, Green Day, and the ever so gay Wicked Broadway cast recording? Also, I died when I saw Cascada mentioned. I used to (Oh, who am I kidding—I still do!) switch between Dance, Pop, and Goth/Dark Wave/Alternative all the time.

Welp, I sort of gave myself away with the last answer, so let’s keep going. Nearly every artist or song mentioned in ATHPP is one that I personally enjoy. I was very much a theatre kid in high school (tech, not stage, though), and Wicked was massive in that circle back then, so, of course, it found its way to me.

If there’s a day in my life when I’m not listening to music, there’s something very wrong. I use music very much as an outlet, and as time goes on, I associate specific styles/artists/songs with important moments/eras in my life. I lean towards pop (including J and K-pop), rock, and musicals, but there’s something for me to like about pretty much every genre at the end of the day.

I’m also here for the Cascada camaraderie. Jonathan Young’s cover of Everytime We Touch was playing on my shuffle about an hour before I answered this question.

Despite my love of music, I didn’t see my first live concert until last year. It was Ado’s Hibana World Tour, and I highly recommend her to anyone with a pulse. New Genesis, Usseewa, Unravel and Tot Musica are good places to start—according to my taste in Ado, which is excellent.

The setting of Glenbridge and the Canada–Ireland exchange dynamic create a strong sense of cultural contrast and connection in And Then He Pressed Play: Track One. Considering your experience growing up in Canada, why was it important for you to explore queer adolescence through both Canadian and Irish perspectives? How did those contrasting cultural settings help shape the emotional and thematic core of the story, particularly in relation to identity, belonging, and self-discovery?

I started off knowing it was an exchange story with a Canadian as one of the protagonists, but I didn’t know the other half was in Ireland at the time. I considered the USA, France, Germany, and England, as well. I ruled out the USA because, although our countries are very different, there’s a lot of cultural overlap. As a Canadian who married an American (Hi Adam!), it was also too close to my lived experience for comfort.

Germany and France fell out because of the language barrier, both for me and for poor A.J.; England seemed a bit too “easy” in terms of A.J. blending in and being accepted. Canada used to be part of the British Empire and all that, so that left us with Ireland.

I’ll admit I felt a bit of a pull to Ireland because I’m (very loosely) tied to it through a great-great-grandfather who was born there. A fun little coincidence is that I set the story near Cork, never knowing where in Ireland he was from, and it turns out he was from Cork (Which is the capital of Ireland dontcha know 😉 ).

Anyway, Ireland fits because while there’s cultural overlap and a shared dominant language, the country has a massively strong sense of self, and despite all that’s been done to it and its people, it carries on and accepts those who earnestly try to understand and belong (and you know—don’t try and colonize them). Also, sarcasm and slag as affection are fun to write, and if there’s one thing I’ve learned from the friends I’ve made there, you know you’re friends once they start making you question if they even like you.

You’ve stated, “Hate will never win in my books.” In a time when our stories are still being challenged, politicized, and even banned, what responsibility, if any, do you think gay/queer authors have when writing about gay/queer characters and for LGBTQ+ readers? Conversations in our community and culture often emphasize the importance of visibility and authenticity, especially during Pride Month.

So, Robert, as a gay man, consumer, and Own-Voices author, what do meaningful visibility and authenticity in our literature mean to you?

To me, visibility is, in a sense, pretty straightforward. The more queer stories we can get out there, the better.

As much as you hear people complain that they can’t pick up X media without having a queer character shoved down their throats, it’s really not the case. More so, a lot of the queer characters that do exist are flattened ideas of us, written by, at best, well-meaning heteronormative people and, at worst, people perpetuating stereotypes and false images because it sells or serves a purpose.

It’s important to me that queer people appear in any and every medium, genre or style people want to see them in, whether that person be a creative or a consumer. I do still want the love stories and coming outs and struggling against persecution and attempted elimination, but I also love seeing things like: “Ok, an action movie, but what if it wasn’t all straight people.”

I know I’m preaching to the choir here, but so many people who aren’t a part of our community just don’t understand how different life is growing up queer. When you’re straight, you see yourself, or at least your romantic interests, in nearly every piece of media. It’s not even that it’s accepted; it’s just seen as the normal default.

When we do see ourselves in media, we’re often campy, one-dimensional or quickly buried. More than that, there’s often a whisper of “Oh, this is just to check a box” or “Ugh, so woke.” It’s better in a lot of ways than when I was growing up, which was better in a lot of ways than when the generation before me was. However, we’re still a long way off from what I’d like to see, which is people getting to see themselves in media and not having to feel grateful or thankful, if that makes sense.

As a little side note, there’s also this weird idea that just because something is queer, it’s sexual. I actually struggled with this a bit while writing ATHPP. It’s internalized homophobia, sadly, and while it’s not a dominating force in my head, it does whisper sometimes.

I’d be writing a scene where Bren and A.J. are kissing, hand trailing around, feeling the love they share and going “Ok, but isn’t this kind of like, overly sexual? Or pushing things on people?” Then I asked myself, “Ok, what if it was A.J. and Brenda? (and now I’ve made myself sad picturing heteronormative Bren and A.J.).” And the immediate answer was, “No, it’s teens being teens like they are in every teen story where there’s romance and kissing.”

So I guess, in short, we all need visibility, even those of us who are trying to add to that visibility.

Robert, you’re an avid knitter and yarn enthusiast, soap maker, and Sailor Moon fan—though I hear you prefer the title “Sailor Senshi” to “Moonie.” Regarding your love of books, do you have any classic favourites? What are you currently reading? Do you prefer specific genres, or are your tastes quite diverse?

I was thirty-five years old when I first heard the term “Moonie,” and I do prefer to think of myself as an honorary Senshi instead. As far as reading goes, I do bounce around a bit based on mood. That said, queer stories (non-epic), fantasy and YA tend to get the most read time from me.

Also, it depends on what you mean by classics. Little Women is one of my favourites and fits the bill for a classic, but The Hunger Games and anything by Scott Westerfeld get a lot of my attention most months. I’ve been reading a lot more indies since I joined that realm myself, and I’m a massive fan of Simon Doyle, particularly This Is Not A Vampire Story. [Me too! Check out my review of This Is Not A Vampire Story and my awesome interview with Own Voice author Simon Doyle!]

As for what I’m reading now, it’s a bit of a secret, but it’s a WIP of a mutual of mine, and once it’s done, I expect it’ll be right up there with my other favourites. 

Looking ahead, what’s next for you creatively? I know your follow-up to And Then He Pressed Play: Track One—the gay/queer YA novel And Then He Pressed Play: Track Two—is currently slated for an October 2026 release. Without spoiling anything, how does this novel connect to the first book? Is this a continuation of A.J. and Bren’s story, or something that stands on its own within a broader narrative? Are we looking at a connective series here? Spill!

Track Two is a direct continuation from Track One. It picks up at the start of grade twelve and follows the boys, their friends, and families, both found and born, through their last year of high school. I don’t consider it a spoiler myself, but in case anyone reading this does. *Spoiler Alert*  Track Three is set to follow them through some portion of their university years. As for which country it’s set in, whether they attend university, and which year(s) of that time in their life it covers, that’s a secret for now.

I’ve also been dying to announce this, so I figure this is a good place to do it. The first novel I have planned for after ATHPP is titled My Shooting Star. It’s something of a bridge between my debut and ATHPP. It’s a standalone, not directly connected in any way, but there will be queer love, mist, and some tough stuff for my main characters to work out.

Thank you so much, Robert, for joining me on the BLOG this Pride Month and sharing your insights on your work in Gay/Queer Fiction. It was a pleasure to discuss your contributions to LGBTQ+ storytelling and to learn more about your creative process. I wish you every success with your future projects. I can’t wait to get my hands on And Then He Pressed Play: Track Two!

For more information on Robert J. Halliwell, visit his website, and follow him on Instagram, TikTok, and Facebook.

The Ties That Bind is available for purchase online at amazon.ca, amazon.com, and on Audible.

And Then He Pressed Play: Track One is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.com, Indigo, Barnes & Noble, and Audible.

And Then He Pressed Play: Track Two is available for Pre-order on amazon.ca and amazon.com.

Gaying Up the Erotic Thriller: Thom Collins’ Basic Instincts Series

“I wouldn’t classify the series as anything other than gay erotic thrillers. I’m proud to be writing them.” – Thom Collins, from our February 2026 interview.

BRITISH AUTHOR Thom Collins’ Basic Instincts series is a fascinating fusion of erotic thriller, crime fiction, and M/M romance, drawing unapologetically from the cinematic DNA of the 1990s erotic thriller zeitgeist, which I’m a huge fan of. The title itself is an overt nod to Basic Instinct, the 1991 genre-defining classic that remains one of Collins’ acknowledged favourite films and a clear source of inspiration. For some, that connection may feel a little on the nose, but I have no issue with it. In fact, I think it’s a clever way to tap into readers’ familiarity with the erotic thriller genre. By invoking such an iconic piece of pop-culture history, Collins immediately signals the atmosphere, themes, and sensibilities the series aims to explore.

Yet rather than merely imitating its namesake, the series re-imagines that tradition through a distinctly gay/queer lens, replacing the era’s traditional heterosexual conventions with compelling gay protagonists, same-sex desire, and contemporary emotional complexity.

And OK, sure, there were elements of bisexuality in some of these films, but it was almost always female bisexuality, packaged and presented through the straight male gaze. Authentic portrayals of queerness were rarely the focus. And queer female sexuality was usually treated as something dangerous, seductive, or taboo—a narrative device to heighten the film’s erotic charge rather than a genuine exploration of LGBTQ+ identity. 

While Neo-Noir and erotic thrillers existed in the 1980s, with films like Body Heat, Fatal Attraction, and Two Moon Junction, they were a defining force in 1990s cinema; explicit queer male representation within this genre, however, was either pushed to the margins or entirely absent.

Take a film like The Talented Mr. Ripley: its queerness is present, but largely obfuscated rather than openly articulated, existing through suggestion, subtext, and coded desire rather than explicit representation. This is evident in Tom’s obsession with Dickie and in the film’s conclusion, which implies that Tom and Peter are lovers. The novel on which the film is based, published in 1955, approaches queerness in a similarly coded manner. Tom Ripley’s sexuality remains ambiguous, never overtly defined. Author Patricia Highsmith maintained that Ripley was not strictly gay, suggesting that he would sleep with anyone if it furthered his goals. At his core, she viewed him as a sociopath. A similar argument could  easily be made about Catherine Tramell, Sharon Stone’s bisexual character in Basic Instinct.

Writing within the heavily censored and deeply homophobic climate of the 1950s, Highsmith relied on subtle cues, psychological obsession, and feelings of social alienation to explore her protagonist’s same-sex desires. Even so, Tom appears to lean strongly toward same-sex attraction, at least on an emotional level. Whether that attraction is genuinely sexual, romantic, aspirational, or some combination of all three remains open to interpretation. That, at least, is how I read the character; again, depictions of explicit male queerness and same-sex desire was never on the table.

What makes Collins’ series particularly effective is how naturally it balances gay eroticism with suspense. The M/M content is undeniably explicit, but it never feels detached from the narrative. Attraction, sex, and emotional vulnerability are woven directly into his storytelling, the danger and psychological tension that drive each novel. Collins understands a principle that many thrillers forget: desire can be just as powerful a narrative force as violence. The result is a series where erotic encounters heighten the stakes rather than feeling like interruptions to the violence—or the violence like an interruption to the eroticism. The fusion is flawless, and each element shines with its unique strength.

As I said, the influence of the classic erotic thriller is evident throughout. There are dangerous attractions, questionable loyalties, secrets lurking beneath polished surfaces, and a constant undercurrent of sexual tension. Fans of films such as Basic Instinct, Body of Evidence, Sliver or Color of Night will recognize the atmosphere immediately. Collins captures the seductive uncertainty that made those films so memorable (albeit with varying degrees of artistic merit), while updating the formula for readers seeking queer representation and more emotionally nuanced relationships.

The pacing is another major strength. The novels move with confidence, alternating between investigation, character development, suspense, and erotic tension without ever feeling rushed or stagnant. Collins demonstrates a keen understanding of momentum; each revelation arrives at precisely the right moment, and every scene feels conscious of its place within the broader narrative. The books are page-turners not because they rely on constant shocks, but because they understand how to build anticipation.

Equally impressive is the handling of violence. In less well-executed thrillers, violent incidents can feel gratuitous or inserted simply to raise the stakes. Here, the violence is carefully planned and story-flow conscious. Every act of brutality has narrative weight and consequence, serving the plot and character arcs rather than existing for mere spectacle. Collins knows when to deploy violence and, perhaps more importantly, when to hold back, allowing tension and uncertainty to do much of the work.

Now Comes the Dark, the first novel in the series, is amazing at balancing its central romance with the simmering tension of the surrounding violence. The connection between protagonists Roman and Mellon anchors the novel; it’s intensely physical, emotionally charged, and always threaded through with the awareness that what they’re building exists in a city already marked by fear and homophobic brutality. Their scenes together carry a genuine heat, but what makes them more compelling is how often that intimacy feels hard-won, almost defiant, against the instability around them.

What also stands out is how grounded the book feels in its wider world. The supporting characters aren’t just background figures; they’re sharply drawn enough to feel lived-in, particularly Roman’s roommate and his abrasive boyfriend, who add texture and contrast to Roman’s more vulnerable position.

The queer community’s response to police inaction is another strong element, giving the story a broader social weight beyond the central relationship. The city itself feels like an active presence, with its gay bars and clubs; even the everyday spaces are reshaped by fear and rumour. It’s this combination of personal intimacy and communal unease that gives the novel its most tense and emotionally impactful moments. This novel sets clear reader expectations for quality in subsequent entries of the series.

Nothing But the Night is one of those second instalments that confidently stands on its own, while still nodding, lightly and without obligation, to the wider Basic Instincts universe. I should note here that all of the novels in this series, which are set in the UK, can be read as standalones. Collins’ deep-rooted understanding of British culture and geography infuses his work with an authenticity and richness that lend the series a remarkable sense of depth and credibility, making even wholly invented places such as the recurring city of Blyham in the North of England feel convincingly real.

With Roman and Mellon appearing only in passing, the focus stays firmly on our new couple, Marc and Jason, and it works precisely because their dynamic is so immediate and absorbing. Marc’s frustration with a police force that refuses to take his brother’s death seriously sets the story in motion. Still, it’s Jason—the ex-Royal Navy Police turned private detective—who gives that grief a direction, pulling the narrative into something both investigative and deeply sensual.

What makes the novel especially compelling is the way Collins balances a tightly constructed murder mystery with a slow, almost combustible build between the two men. The whodunit is genuinely effective—deceptive in a way that keeps the reader off-balance right up to the reveal—while the pacing knows exactly when to accelerate and when to breathe. That rhythm gives the relationship space to develop organically, so that when attraction finally tips into action, it feels earned rather than engineered. Their internal awareness of each other is just as charged as their physical connection, creating a steady undercurrent of tension that runs through even the quieter scenes.

The tone is equally striking: dark and at times brutal, especially in its depiction of violence and the vulnerability of the queer community under pressure, yet never without emotional texture. Maybe even more so than Now Comes the Dark. There’s grief, anger, and systemic frustration woven through the plot, but also moments of genuine warmth and intimacy that prevent the darkness from becoming overwhelming. Even familiar genre elements—a grieving protagonist, a skeptical investigator, a conspiracy lurking beneath a local tragedy—feel refreshed by Collins’ atmospheric control and character focus. The result is a novel that moves with purpose, lands its twists cleanly, and delivers exactly what it promises: a tense, emotionally charged gay erotic thriller.

The third novel in the series, Beyond the Darkness, thrives on its theatrical setting, using the rehearsal space not just as a backdrop but as a pressure cooker where performance, identity, and fear all start to blur.

Hudson Rhodes is an especially strong anchor for the story: an American actor trying to move beyond the cult shadow of an earlier slasher film that still defines how others see him, even as it resurfaces in the form of stalking, unsettling notes, and imagery that forces him back into a past he wants to escape. That sense of being trapped between reinvention and reputation gives the novel its emotional core, and Collins uses it well to keep the stakes personal even as the threat rises. The introduction of Luke Kamal, the local journalist Hudson initially resents, adds another layer of tension that works beyond simple attraction.

Their relationship develops amid suspicion, professional distrust, and mutual guardedness, making their eventual connection feel earned—organically—rather than easy or inevitable. I’ve mentioned this relationship dynamic before. It’s a recurring theme in Collins’ work, and one that proves particularly effective in the thriller genre, where danger leads to authentic mistrust, providing a credible source of tension. Collins avoids the frustration often caused in conventional romance narratives, where romantic conflict is typically driven by contrived misunderstandings or behaviour designed solely to serve the plot, such as the trope of the “difficult, arrogant or uptight protagonist.”

Around Hudson and Luke, the chaos of the production itself—rehearsals disrupted by intrusion, shifting suspicions, and ultimately a brutal murder staged with chilling theatricality—keeps the narrative in constant motion. The violence, while on-page and uncompromising, serves a clear purpose: to heighten the sense that the boundary between art and reality is collapsing.

What stands out most is Collins’ ability to tie the story’s themes together: the fragility of reputation, the lasting damage of media narratives, and the way past roles can continue to define a person long after they’ve moved on. Hudson’s history with the infamous film that refuses to stay buried becomes more than backstory—it actively shapes the present danger he’s in. Combined with the growing emotional pull between him and Luke, the result is a novel that balances suspense, psychological weight, and simmering attraction, all within a tightly controlled, stage-lit atmosphere where nothing feels entirely safe or stable.

Lastly, I have to mention Night Crimes, the prequel novelette that serves as the official entry point into Collins’ Basic Instincts series. The story follows Kurtis, who is in for much more than what he thinks will be a straightforward one-night music gig in Blyham—a city plagued by high levels of anti-LGBTQ+ hate crimes. From the moment Kurtis arrives, there’s a sense that this isn’t a place where things stay simple for long. At the venue, he meets Zand, the manager of The Blue Pearl, and the attraction between them is immediate.

Kurtis is soon pulled into something far more complicated than a potential one-night-stand. After he goes home with Zand, the night takes an unexpected turn when Zand’s lodger brings an anonymous hook-up into the mix. From there, the story shifts into a tense blend of desire and danger, where intimacy and risk start to blur in ways none of them are really prepared for.

As a prequel, Night Crimes isn’t just telling its own self-contained story—it also sets the tone for the series as a whole. Collins establishes early on that in this world, attraction and desire, lust and love, rarely come without consequence.

One of the most impressive strengths of Collins’ storytelling here is that across these books, he navigates slasher territory without slipping into the tired old “woman in trouble who needs saving” template, just gender-flipped. The gay/queer male protagonists are never reduced to only being passive victims throughout the story, waiting to be constantly rescued or emotionally propped up by an Alpha-male saviour figure. Instead, they’re active participants in their own survival—driving investigations, making difficult decisions, and often pushing directly into danger.

Even in moments of vulnerability, their agency remains intact; fear and desire don’t erase their capacity to act or think, they sharpen it. That balance is what keeps the series from feeling like a simple genre transposition. Instead, it feels like a genuine reworking of slasher and erotic thriller conventions through a queer lens, where gay men aren’t substitutes for old tropes but fully realized characters operating within—and reshaping—the genre’s rules.

Ultimately, the Basic Instincts series succeeds because it embraces the strengths of a beloved, classic genre while giving it a fresh identity. It channels the seductive danger and psychological intrigue of the great 1990s erotic thrillers, but filters them through modern queer storytelling and richly drawn M/M relationships. The result is a series that is sexy, suspenseful, intelligent, and remarkably well-constructed—a worthy heir to the erotic thriller tradition and a compelling example of how that tradition can evolve for contemporary readers by embracing male queerness.

AND COMING JULY 2026: The Dark Before Dawn (Basic Instincts Book 4)  Pre-order now! 

A brutal killer. An unwitting witness. A cop caught in a deadly pursuit.

Jude Kalvert has returned to his home city of Blyham, where he plays gigs around his favourite bars despite the growing sense that the city has become more dangerous than he remembers.

After one of his shows, an unexpected reunion with an old school friend offers a welcome distraction. Danyal Nadir is no longer the shy, bullied boy Jude recalls—now a confident police officer and LGBTQ+ liaison, he’s someone Jude is instantly drawn to, and their reconnection quickly feels like it could become something more. But the night takes a darker turn when Jude realises he may have been one of the last people to see a murder victim alive. Soon, he and Danyal find themselves pulled into a deadly pursuit, with a killer closing in and nowhere safe to hide.

As the investigation tightens and danger escalates, their growing bond is tested under pressure—turning a tentative reunion into a fight for survival, where trust and desire become impossible to separate.

For more information about this author, follow Thom on Instagram and visit his Website

Night Crimes: A Basic Instincts Story is available for purchase at amazon.ca, amazon.com, and Barnes & Noble.

Now Comes the Dark (Basic Instincts Book 1) is available for purchase at amazon.ca, amazon.com, and Barnes & Noble.

Nothing But the Night (Basic Instincts Book 2) is available for purchase at amazon.ca, amazon.com, and Barnes & Noble.

Beyond the Darkness (Basic Instincts Book 3) is available for purchase at amazon.ca, amazon.com, and Barnes & Noble.

PRIDE MONTH 2026 IS HERE!

“Either life entails courage, or it ceases to be life.” – E.M. FORSTER

Cover Image: The First Official Pride Picnic that took place at Hanlan’s Point Beach In August 1971 / A poster of the 1973 Gay Pride Week in Toronto. The year I was born!

RIGHT NOW, it’s a particularly tumultuous time for members of the LGBTQ+ community around the world. Many of us, myself included, have grown somewhat complacent in recent years, lulled into a false sense of security by our progress and, for many, living openly and proud.

We began to believe that the fight for fundamental equal rights was largely behind us, that the struggle for acceptance and equality was a battle we were winning, and that the fear of “discovery” and persecution, which queer individuals have faced for decades, if not centuries, were gradually fading away. Yes, we will still face opposition, but the idea of actually moving backwards after so many triumphs?! Inconceivable.

However, this mindset can ultimately lead to perilous oversights. Rights that have been passionately fought for—rights that endured a generation of struggle and sacrifice—can be stripped away in a shocking and swift moment. This is happening now in many countries.

As a minority, we will always be vulnerable to the decisions of those who choose to ignore our basic human rights, pushing us back into the shadows, trying to make us small, unseen, and unheard. It only takes one fervent bigot to rise to a position of power, spreading insidious lies and beliefs—and before we know it, the delicate tapestry of compassion and understanding that has taken so long to weave begins to unravel.

Believing that progress unfolds in a straight line, constantly advancing and that societal attitudes will perpetually evolve for the better is, regrettably, a misconception. Coming to terms with this truth has proven to be a rather challenging endeavour for me. In my 20s, I never fathomed the notion that, in my 50s, I would grapple with such a torrent of emotions: frustration clawing at my insides, deep sadness casting a shadow over my spirit, and an overwhelming sense of powerlessness.

There’s also a palpable anger simmering just beneath the surface, and, at times, I will admit it erupts as I shout at the TV, shake my fist at the news, and argue online with the ignorant, the entitled, and the bigoted. Sadly, sometimes the call is coming from inside the house. It’s disheartening when the hostility comes from within our own community, and we find ourselves attacked by other queer individuals. Are these feelings and actions healthy, promoting wellness and a stable state of mind? Generally, no—but they’re real. And they are mine. And with the love and support of my husband, I deal.

During Pride month, I feel this assortment of emotions more than at any other time of the year. Especially when I think about the tragedy at Orlando’s Pulse Nightclub in 2016, the murder of Matthew Sheppard in 1998, and the “Gay Purge” in Canada, a period of discrimination and persecution of LGBTQ+ individuals in the public service and armed forces between the 1950s and 1990s that involved the systematic identification, investigation, and expulsion of LGBTQ+ individuals, resulting in destroyed careers, lives, and mental health.

[Image On Left: Toronto Pride Parade]

And even more recently, last year’s hate crime that actor Jonathan Joss and his husband faced from their neighbour, which tragically led to Joss’ fatal shooting, still leaves me with feelings of absolute sorrow and rage.

People often misunderstand the idea of “tolerating intolerance.” Tolerance does not mean accepting every belief, behaviour, or action without question. A tolerant society is built on mutual respect and the freedom for people to live safely and equally. When intolerance seeks to deny others those rights, remaining silent is not an act of tolerance—it can become an act of complicity.

The goal is not to suppress disagreement or debate. But there’s a difference between disagreeing with someone and supporting efforts to marginalize, discriminate against, or dehumanize others. Defending the basic human rights and dignity of all people sometimes requires drawing a firm line against intolerance, especially when it leads directly towards outright hatred. True tolerance is not the absence of standards. It’s a commitment to protecting a society in which everyone can participate freely and respectfully, and live alongside one another without fear of violence because of their identity.

In that sense, refusing to tolerate intolerance is not a contradiction; it’s often what makes tolerance possible in the first place. And yes, I’d rather be valued for who I am than merely tolerated. Still, I understand that, at least for now, that remains more of an aspiration than a reality.

[Image on Right: Justin Trudeau became the first sitting prime minister to participate in Toronto, Canada’s annual Pride Parade—the largest in the country. (And I don’t care if you like or dislike him, or think his relationship with Katy Perry is strange—and, admittedly, it kinda is—because this isn’t about him as an individual citizen, but rather about his actions as a progressive elected official.) Another important historical moment to note is when the late Pierre Trudeau, the former Prime Minister of Canada and Justin’s father, decriminalized homosexuality in 1968.]

So, to all of us who exist within the LGBTQ+ rainbow and to those who assert to be our allies, please remain vigilant and proactive for your sake, the sake of those you love, and even strangers who are just, or maybe more, vulnerable to homophobia, transphobia, queerphobia; don’t fall into the trap of believing that all is well simply because it’s 2026.

And to everyone in the LGBTQ+ community, let’s commit to looking out for one another, regardless of which letter we identify with in this vibrant spectrum. We don’t have to fully understand all of our differences to recognize that everyone deserves the freedom to live with dignity, respect, and without fear of discrimination or persecution. Together, let’s celebrate the joyful spirit of Pride Month by embracing both our diversity and our shared humanity. I often recall the line George Michael sang in Praying for Time: “And it’s hard to love, there’s so much to hate…,” and some days, that frustration feels impossible to ignore. Even so, let’s try to make the effort to lead with empathy and kindness. Yes, we will fail at times, but it’s the perseverance that matters.

Book Review: The Award by Matthew Pearl

As weeks passed, David occasionally heard from his editor, then didn’t hear from her at all, until the point came when it seemed the book might never have existed.” – Matthew Pearl, The Award

MATTHEW PEARL’S novel, The Award, is an intellectually engaging work that combines literary intrigue with a deeply human story of ambition, craft, and the complex relationship between recognition and integrity. At its core, The Award explores the world of literary prestige—specifically, the high-stakes culture surrounding awards, reputation, and the publishing industry. 

Pearl constructs an authentic, immersive setting that draws readers into this competitive atmosphere in which writers, critics, and institutions shape what is considered “worthy” literature. Rather than treating this world superficially, he dissects it with nuance, showcasing how ambition can both elevate and distort creative expression.

One of the strongest aspects of Pearl’s work has always been his prose style, which has never let me down. While the language in The Award is naturally more restrained than the lush, period-inflected prose of his historical novels, such as The Poe Shadow, the writing remains every bit as crisp and evocative as I expected. The prose is often revealing, serving not just to advance the plot but also to expose both obvious and underlying tensions between characters. The pacing is carefully controlled, balancing quieter, reflective passages with moments of escalation that remain engaging without ever feeling rushed.

What makes The Award especially interesting within Pearl’s body of work is that it marks a departure from both his recent narrative nonfiction and the historical thrillers and literary mysteries that helped define his reputation. Readers familiar with novels like The Dante Club or The Last Dickens will immediately notice the shift away from complex historical reconstruction, period-specific intrigue, and the elaborate mystery structures that characterize his back catalogue.

In contrast, The Award is directly focused on the modern literary world and the institutions that shape it today. Rather than reconstructing history or explaining literary heritage, Pearl turns his attention to the present-day culture of recognition, ambition, and artistic validation. The result is a tonal and structural shift: the suspense is less about solving a historical riddle and more about navigating psychological and professional pressures in a contemporary setting.

And like all his past work, it’s just as engrossing.

At the center of this world is David Trent, a protagonist imbued with psychological complexity, making his journey feel believable and emotionally resonant. His motivations are neither purely noble nor purely self-serving, adding a layer of realism.

As the narrative unfolds, readers are invited to question not only what the character wants but also why recognition matters so deeply in the first place. Pearl uses this internal tension to propel the story forward, alongside any external plot mechanics.

That tension is amplified by the novel’s moral landscape. There isn’t a single easily likable character in the entire cast. Instead, the book is populated by people operating across overlapping layers of narcissism, self-interest, and self-preservation, making it hard to unambiguously root for anyone. The reader is often left choosing the “least disagreeable” figure rather than finding a true protagonist to admire. I love this approach—it’s all shades of grey, yet that grey feels far more weighted toward shadow than light. It encourages (okay, I might say forces, but for your own good) the reader to look deeper into character motivations and moral codes—not just a simple “good and bad” divide, but something far messier, and far more thought-provoking.

The Award isn’t a conventional thriller, yet it sustains a steady, elegantly unsettling dramatic suspense and psychological tension throughout. The novel is a biting study of ambition and moral compromise, in which nearly every interaction is shaped by what someone stands to gain. Writing, for many of the characters, is less about creation than about leverage: a means to prestige, recognition, and survival in a status-obsessed culture. As the book continues its machinations in the second half, everyone has something they want from being a writer, but very few seem to have any specific desire or passion to write just to create meaningful work.

Thematically, the novel raises provocative questions about the value of awards and the systems that determine cultural merit. It critiques the idea that recognition is always synonymous with quality while acknowledging why such systems continue to matter to both writers and readers. This balance prevents the book from becoming preachy or overly cynical, instead inviting reflection and allowing readers to draw their own conclusions.

The Award stands as a well-crafted, incredibly intriguing novel that rewards careful and immersive reading. Like all of Pearl’s work, and yes, I have some bias as he’s one of my favourite authors and a writer who inspires my own literary voice and style, this novel is both entertaining and intellectually stimulating. I highly recommend this book to readers who appreciate fiction with substance, depth, and a keen understanding of the complexities of creativity.

The Award is available for purchase at Indigo.caamazon.ca, amazon.com, and thriftbooks. For more information about this author, follow Matthew Pearl on Instagram and visit his Website.

An Interview with Gay/Queer Romance Author Nicholas Young

Nicholas Young: “I’m sure my sexuality influences my writing subconsciously. It would be strange if it did not.”

I WANT to welcome Nicholas Young to the Blog. Nicholas is a Canadian author whose work delves into themes of queerness, memory, isolation, and belonging through intimate, character-driven storytelling. His debut novel, Under the Covered Bridge, is a coming-of-age story set in rural Québec that follows a gay/queer teenager as he navigates grief, first love, and self-discovery.

Holding a diploma in Legal Studies and a degree in Sociology with a focus on Women and Gender Studies, Nicholas has spent over 18 years working in the legal field—more than seven of those in criminal law. His professional experience includes work on national Indigenous rights initiatives, including files connected to Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls (MMIWG) and Truth and Reconciliation.

A lover of museums and a passionate traveller, Nicholas seeks out places steeped in history. From Pompeii to the Neolithic settlement of Skara Brae on a remote island in northern Scotland, he’s fascinated by spaces that offer a tangible connection to the past. Edinburgh remains a favourite destination, with Québec City a close second.

Nicholas currently resides in Ottawa with his husband, Alex—who, I hear, considers him an oversharer, much like my own husband does of me. Which, frankly, makes him perfect interview material.

In our conversation, we discuss various topics, including the idea of narrative setting—or landscape—as character, the challenges of depicting trauma in its complexity while maintaining sensitivity, and the creative and cathartic importance of crafting a story inspired by the life of a loved one, now passed.

Check out my review of Nicholas Young’s Under the Covered Bridge here!

Nicholas, Under the Covered Bridge is a remarkable debut novel and a pleasure to read. I found it moving and beautifully written. Looking back on your writing journey as both a form of creative expression and the beginning of a career, who or what stands out as your greatest source of inspiration? Was there a specific moment when you thought, “Yes, now is the time to share my work publicly,” or did that shift happen gradually? How do you navigate that sense of vulnerability and the inevitable critiques, positive and negative (or worse—neutrality!) that come with it?

I began writing Under the Covered Bridge as an ode to my second cousin. Growing up in a small rural Québec town as a queer man, he faced a lot of aggression that inevitably caused him to leave. As a result, I did not really get to know him until I was an adult. He passed away unexpectedly in 2023, and I never got the chance to hear all of his stories. Ricky was a large part of the inspiration that began my journey. I wanted to write him a story. The story eventually turned into a self-healing process for me, and a way for me to release some emotions I never knew, or perhaps did not want to acknowledge, that were building inside me. As cliché as it may sound, I became a source of inspiration for myself.

I had started writing many stories throughout my life, but never finished them. I think, because I finished this one, I was just so excited to share it. It happened very quickly. I learned a lot from the process (more don’ts than dos). This book put me in a very vulnerable place as it contains a lot of “me” in it—a lot of raw emotions. I got nervous and anxious about family members reading it because of this. But it was such a rush of emotion when I finished and published the book that I think all those thoughts and anxieties came after. I was very proud I did it, though, and that trumped all the other emotions.

I love critiques, both positive and negative. While I am happy to say I have received more positive feedback than negative, this is a debut novel. It is not perfect. I am not perfect. So, I take it all as a learning opportunity to apply to new projects. Some of my favourite reactions stem from people being upset with characters or events and receiving DMs after midnight in pure rage over one of the many things that occur throughout the book. When it comes to neutrality, I think you’re right, it is the worst because I just don’t have anything to work with. I have found the best way to navigate all of this is to engage and be open, while simultaneously understanding that not every story is for everyone, and that’s okay.

In your novel, Kaveh Hartwell’s story is one shaped by isolation and emotional displacement; it begins with the death of his mother, followed soon by the death of his father. He is then placed with blood relatives who feel burdened by his presence and aren’t particularly nurturing or empathetic toward him, especially at a time when he most needs that support. As a result, his sense of emotional and psychological survival comes through quiet, formative friendships rather than family, both out of desire and necessity. How did you approach friendship and “chosen family” as forms of safety and belonging when biological relatives are present but emotionally distant, and unable or unwilling to offer acceptance and tenderness?

To be raw and honest, I had neither when I was growing up. I moved eight times and attended seven different schools before the age of fifteen (and no, my family was not military). I did not build friendships that lasted, and my family thrives on being “tough” and “man-ing up.” Love was obligatory, emotion was forbidden.

So, I approached family as I knew it, and I approached friendship as I learned it in my adult life. Kaveh’s home life not only represents a part of me, but a part of queer society: rejection. At its core, people within the queer community either face rejection head-on or the fear of being rejected. Kaveh faces both through family and school.

What Kaveh does have is his chosen family. I wanted to place emphasis on the fact that our energy, our love, our emotional and psychological well-being should be in the hands of those who let us hold theirs.

Expanding on this idea of isolation, is that part of the reason you placed Kaveh in a remote, rural Québec setting? Was it important to you that the landscape he inhabits mirrors the emotional and psychological unmooring of his life? Do you see the setting as primarily a literary device used to shape the atmosphere of the book, or is there a deeper intention behind it? I have my own interpretation, but I’m curious to hear your thoughts.

The isolated location stems back to my cousin. The Eastern Townships is where he grew up. A large part of his isolation and loneliness stemmed from being both from a time when it was difficult to come out, but also from a place that made it almost impossible to be different until quite recently. The location was integral in that way, because in isolated rural areas, we can feel even more alone due to the lack of resources and community centres that can often offer some reprieve for the queer community. It becomes more difficult to say you are different, even when you know perhaps others around you are as well.

It also mirrored Kaveh’s personal struggles. He was isolated geographically and also within his own home, both literally and emotionally. However, even when all these factors are true, as they were for Kaveh, I wanted to give readers a message: There is always someone willing to hold you. We just need to find them.

Thinking about the novel’s structure, memory itself feels almost animate, like something Kaveh is in constant dialogue with; it’s something he revisits and even writes toward, as if it might answer back. The act of remembering seems less about preserving the past and more about emotionally negotiating with it, a form of processing in the wake of loss. Kaveh tells his story by writing to someone from his past, revisiting and reinterpreting memories as he goes.

When you were writing his journey, how did you conceptualize memory: as a reliable truth, a form of storytelling shaped by longing and distance, or simply as a coping mechanism? What drew you to the epistolary-like structure, and how did the strategy of writing to “the boy who changed everything” help you craft your story?

I chose this structure because I think many of us have (or had) someone in our lives we wish could know how we felt. The act of writing a letter can become a way to release tension, make sense of pain, and begin to move forward instead of living in the past.

Kaveh begins writing to “the boy who changed everything” because, at the time the letter is conceived, he truly believes that that boy did change everything. But by the end of the book, Kaveh realizes that the real change was within himself. What begins as a coping mechanism, as a way of asking, “How do I move past this part of my life?” becomes something gentler and more transformative.

It becomes a way for him to say goodbye. And for Kaveh, goodbye becomes love and understanding. It becomes forgiveness not just for Niall, but also for himself. His memories become an unreliable truth. For, in fact, Niall is not the boy who changed everything. Kaveh is the one who takes control and changes the narrative.

Death makes an appearance early in your novel, and it naturally shapes Kaveh’s emotional development. Grief isn’t treated as decorative backstory; it becomes formative, influencing his identity in the way trauma often does. Violence, sadly, also enters his life. Literary tropes permeate fiction, and queer narratives are no exception. I don’t think there’s anything inherently wrong with tropes when they’re executed well and serve a compelling story. That said, many gay/queer coming-of-age stories lean heavily on trauma or tragedy as the defining experience.

How important was it for you to move away from that kind of “trauma narrative,” and instead focus on something more emotionally layered—even as pain and sorrow remain central to Kaveh’s evolution? How do you feel you succeeded in reworking that trope so the novel resists being read simply as a story of growth through suffering?

I agree that trauma and loss are recurring themes in queer literature. They exist differently from many traditional tropes, though, because they are rooted in real histories of violence, rejection, silence, and grief that queer communities have carried for generations. In that sense, I think there is an unfortunate truth behind the idea of “write what you know.”

More queer stories are now being written in queer-friendly worlds, with the kind of romance, joy, and storybook happy endings many of us grew up seeing elsewhere. I love that, and in fact, I’m currently reading a series that is both filled with love and uplifting. But I also think that is what makes stories like Under the Covered Bridge more, rather than less, important in 2026. Joy matters deeply, but so does memory—remembering how frightening it was, and still can be, for queer people simply to exist honestly.

Part of why I chose this narrative was to remind readers of that fear without making it the whole of Kaveh’s identity. Under the Covered Bridge was influenced by real-life tragic events, including Matthew Shepard, a tragic event that changed how many people understood hate crimes and violence against queer people. Even when someone is fortunate enough not to experience that violence directly, it can still shape their reality. It shapes what they fear, what they hide, and what they hope for, and so they never really allow themselves to become who they want to be.

So, while I understand the concern around the trauma narrative, I do not see trauma in this book as the main point of Kaveh’s growth. It’s part of the world he must survive in, but it’s not the thing that defines him. His growth comes through love, friendship, self-recognition, and the slow realization that he deserves all of that and more (as do we all). I wrote the story in a way which, I hope, does not reduce Kaveh to what hurt him. Because he is more than that. We are more than that. 

For me, that was the most important part. Kaveh faces the demon, both directly and through love and compassion, but he also outgrows the idea that tragedy must define him. He shows a kind of strength and wisdom I wish I had at his age.

Alongside the novel’s lyrical prose, which gives the narrative a reflective, almost autobiographical tone, the use of Québécois French throughout feels seamlessly integrated. It doesn’t read as an aesthetic flourish, but as something carrying real emotional weight. The bilingual texture also seems to speak to the book’s broader meditation on identity—not only queer identity but also cultural identity.

How important was it to you to situate the novel not just in Québec, but within Canada more broadly, both on a personal level and in shaping the story itself? Also, the movement between English and French echoes the protagonist’s negotiation between different selves. How intentional was this bilingual layering in your writing, and in what ways did you see language itself as a way of expressing Kaveh’s internal division and sense of identity?

The French in the novel was intentional and carefully used. I did not want it to be so overwhelming that a reader felt pushed out of the story, but including it was never negotiable. Writing entirely in English and relying only on phrases like “he said in French” would have diluted the culture, the setting, and the importance of Canada’s French-speaking communities.

I think we often understand intersectionality as the meeting point between ethnicity, sexuality, gender, class, or other forms of social identity. However, language is also part of identity. It can create belonging, but it can also create exclusion. It can mark who is inside a community and who is made to feel outside of it. In that sense, language carries its own kind of cultural and emotional weight. I am happy to hear that it landed as intended, as a doorway into the culture and not simply a caricature of it.

Although the book is set in a relatively isolated place, the descriptive scenery and locations were very intentional. Places like Saint-Benoît-du-Lac, which is a real place and does make excellent cheese, allowed me to show a part of Québec that is not always centered in fiction. Everyone knows Montréal, or at least has some idea of it, but I wanted to write about the rural countryside, the mountains, the quiet roads, and the specific beauty of that landscape. I have a great deal of love for it.

On a personal level, situating the novel in Québec, and in Canada more broadly, mattered deeply to me. Canada is a beautiful country, and I think it should be the centrepiece of more literature, film, television, and games. Often, even when Canadian stories are present, they are softened, disguised, or made to feel more generically North American. I did not want that. For this story, and for the personal reasons that first drew me to write it, Canada was non-negotiable.

In truth, I did not consciously write the movement between French and English as a direct mirror of Kaveh’s internal division. But I think that is one of the beautiful things about art. Sometimes a reader sees something in the work that the writer did not deliberately put there, but it still feels true. I really love that interpretation.

Under the Covered Bridge resists easy genre categorization. It’s not solely a gay romance, nor does it sit neatly within an M/M framework. Emotionally, it’s tender without being sentimental. Intellectually, it engages with themes like language, grief, sexuality, and even geography. The level of introspection here is profound. Your novel also avoids both excessive erotic focus and melodramatic excess; instead, it maintains a quieter emotional voice. It functions as both a coming-out narrative and a broader process of emotional reckoning in adulthood. Your novel feels distinctly queer—and Canadian, yet still accessible to a wide international audience.

How do you think about genre when it comes to how your work is read or categorized, or do you consciously factor it into your writing at all? Did you keep the notion of a specific audience in the back of your mind while writing Under the Covered Bridge?

I did not really force the book into a genre while I was writing it. I let it become what it seemed naturally meant to be, which has made it harder to place in the usual categories. The shortest way I describe it now is “a queer coming-of-age M/M romance set in rural Québec,” but honestly, it took me a while to land on that. Even that description does not properly describe the book. It has romance and queerness at its center, but it’s also about grief, memory, language, place, family, violence, tenderness, and the process of trying to understand yourself after something has changed you. That is a little too long for an elevator pitch, though.

Because of that, it can be difficult to describe the book to readers who are looking for a very specific kind of romance. Some people want something lighter, or more feel-good, or something much spicier. That is completely fair, but this is not really that book. I do think Under the Covered Bridge is a book someone has to be in the right mood for, but I actually take that as a compliment. To me, it means the story is asking to be felt, not just consumed. It’s not something I wanted people to rush through and forget. I want the reader to remember it, and the characters, in a way that is long-lasting and meaningful.

As for the novel’s “audience,” I remember telling myself that if one person bought it and it meant something to them, I had done my job as an author. I wrote the story as honestly as I could, and I am so proud of that. I’m astonished at the amount of support and love it has received so far.

Nicholas, being an openly queer Canadian writer (I relate to that!), do you think your sexuality influences your writing in subtle, perhaps subconscious ways that naturally give it a gay/queer-centred perspective, or is your focus on LGBTQ+ themes something you engage with more deliberately and intentionally?

I’m sure my sexuality influences my writing subconsciously. It would be strange if it did not.

That said, I’ve been writing for most of my life, and storytelling has usually been the main driver before anything else. I wrote a post-apocalyptic version of Lord of the Flies in high school, and even won awards for that. I’ve written Dungeons & Dragons campaigns for game nights, built worlds, shaped characters, and created stories that were not always centred on LGBTQ+ themes.

So I would not say queerness is the only lens I write through, but it is absolutely one of them. With Under the Covered Bridge, those themes were very deliberate. Kaveh’s queerness was not something added later or used as a surface-level check box. It shaped the emotional stakes of the book, his relationships, his fears, his longing, and his efforts to understand himself. For me, narrative always comes first, for sure.

Your hobbies include video games (such as Final Fantasy, Zelda, and Fire Emblem), tabletop games (like Dungeons and Dragons), and board games (Gloomhaven, Eclipse, and Arydia). Now, as for books, I’d love to know what you’re currently reading—do you tend to stick to a favourite genre, or are your reading tastes more wide-ranging?

I’m currently reading Husband Material by Alexis Hall. I do tend to gravitate toward M/M romance. However, Dungeon Crawler Carl by Matt Dinniman has crept into my library, along with Callie Hart’s Fae and Alchemy series, among others.

Historical or period queer romance is probably my absolute favourite, though—which explains my favourite book, The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller. For me, that book is nothing short of a masterclass. I genuinely believe it’s one of those works that will stand the test of time.

A few other favourites are The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee and the Dark Rise series by C.S. Pacat. So, while I often return to queer romance, especially when it has historical or mythological elements, I do like it when other genres surprise me and pull me in.

So, Nicholas, looking ahead, what’s next for you creatively? Can you share any details about what you’re working on after the widely positive reception of Under the Covered Bridge?

Well, I’m currently writing a post-apocalyptic sci-fi fantasy novel set in space after Earth’s almost-destruction. It’s a pretty big shift from Under the Covered Bridge, which was so intimate and personal. This new book is much larger in scope, much more fantastical, and honestly, a little terrifying to write.

I have over 80,000 words written right now, with the hope of landing somewhere around 150,000. I’m also working with a small local writing group, going through it chapter by chapter, making sure the world-building is clear, present, and not overwhelming. With a story like this, I want the reader to feel immersed, but not lost.

I also have another book outlined and another idea floating around as well. So, I’m really hoping Under the Covered Bridge will not be the last book you see my name on. That said, there is a noticeable shift between my debut book and my current projects. The emotional core and lyrical prose will still be there, because that is just how I write, but the settings, genres, and scale will change quite a bit. But that doesn’t rule out a return of Under the Covered Bridge in the future. Kaveh has a lot more to share.

So, with that, I leave you with a direct quote from the new book, and (one of) the MMC’s names, that I have not yet released publicly:

Dusk pressed against the tempered glass above him with a soft light that turned the air deep purples, fiery orange and soft pink. It was Earth’s sun… the same that had once touched oceans and forests alike, but here its heat was gentled, its fire controlled. Beyond the glass, the hull’s upper curvature lay flat against the black sweep of open space. Radiation shields shimmered faintly against the glare, giving the illusion that the heavens themselves trembled…

Torrance did not look away.”

Wow, thank you so much, Nicholas, for sharing a sneak peek at some of your upcoming work. It’s been such a pleasure learning about your creative process and the real-life stories behind your writing. I truly appreciate you taking the time to chat with me and look forward to your future projects!

For more information about Nicholas Young, visit his website and follow him on InstagramFacebook, and Bluesky.

Under the Covered Bridge is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.comIndigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Until May 31, 2026, all proceeds from the sale of a limited-edition Under the Covered Bridge, featuring a Rainbow Bridge–inspired cover, will be donated to the Ottawa Stray Cat Rescue in memory of Nicholas’ kitty, Gryffin, who recently passed. This special edition will be available exclusively on Amazon and will not be offered after this time, except through select events and book boxes. You can purchase it here.

Book Review: And Then He Pressed Play: Track One by Robert J. Halliwell

“Bren’s arm wrapped around A.J.’s chest as the first verse started. It was only then, as music poured from the bud snuggled in his ear, that he realized it–even without his Discman, there was always music when he was with Bren.” – Robert J. Halliwell, And Then He Pressed Play: Track One

CANADIAN AUTHOR Robert J. Halliwell’s And Then He Pressed Play: Track One is a gay/queer coming-of-age love story set in 2006 in the fictional Irish town of Glenbridge, near Cork. It follows 16-year-old A.J. Walker, an openly gay, yet wallflowerish Canadian exchange student from Moose Jaw, as he begins his Grade 11 year at an all-boys school in Ireland.

On his first day, he meets Bren O’Shay, a friendly extrovert who couldn’t be more different from him. After an initial misunderstanding, they become close. As A.J. settles into life in Ireland and begins to open up about his life in Canada, his feelings for Bren deepen into something more than friendship, something closer to love.

Halliwell’s novel is a strong example of how contemporary Canadian queer fiction—especially from own voices authors—continues to evolve beyond familiar coming-out narratives while still honouring the emotional, often dramatic landscape that defines the genre. In this case, our protagonist, A.J., is already living openly and authentically in his sexual/romantic identity at sixteen. That aspect works well for me personally, as I’m not particularly fond of “awakening” narratives and tend to avoid them. (Is this a controversial statement? 😏) Now, our love interest for A.J., Bren, may not be as in tune with his feelings, but the author handles it without that “SURPRISE—you like boys (too)!” out-of-nowhere device; instead, the feelings develop and unfold organically.

At first glance, the novel’s cover might only suggest a gay/queer YA romance: first meetings, first love, and the kind of soft-focus intimacy often associated with YA fiction. But as the saying goes, don’t judge a book by its cover. Halliwell makes it clear early on through direct trigger warnings that this story carries heavier themes, including bullying, violence, and hate speech directed at gay/queer characters.

That tonal duality is where the novel both challenges and distinguishes itself. Writing for a YA audience often comes with an implicit expectation of accessibility and emotional safety, that “cozy romance” feel, yet Halliwell resists sanding down the harsher realities LGBTQ youth (heck, even us adults) can face. The depiction of bullying and anti-gay violence isn’t gratuitous, but neither is it softened to the point of irrelevance or what I like to call “forced emotional narrative contrivance.” Instead, these darker themes sit uneasily with the romance, creating a narrative that asks whether tenderness can coexist with trauma in a way that still feels honest to younger readers—especially gay/queer readers who have experienced these aggressions.

That’s a difficult balance to strike, and while it may feel jarring at times, it’s also a mark of the author’s willingness to push beyond the genre’s comfort zone—and Halliwell does this excellently. Similar to another LGBTQ book I recently read, Under the Covered Bridge by Canadian author Nicholas Young, the measured use of violence in relation to gay/queer youth is poignant, powerful, and delivers meaning rather than disingenuous shock value.

As an own-voices work, the novel carries a sense of authenticity, particularly in its portrayal of friendship and “found family.” While the latter can feel like an overused buzzword, it remains a meaningful and effective concept in gay/queer lives. Halliwell’s work contributes to a growing body of fiction exploring queer identity—particularly Canadian and Irish experiences—which have historically been underrepresented in mainstream YA fiction and wider literature.

The inclusion of a student exchange program between Canada and Ireland serves as an effective narrative device. It allows for organic cultural contrast and connection, particularly through language. The use of regional slang and idioms adds depth to the dialogue and grounds the characters in their respective worlds without feeling forced or overly explanatory. This narrative also reflects themes of sexual identity, exploring the spectrum from gay/queer to straight. It examines how we interact with those who are different from us, especially in a global context.

One of the more refreshing aspects of the book is its handling of teenage voice. YA fiction can sometimes fall into the trap of overly polished, hyper-articulate dialogue—what might be described as “adult cleverness” masquerading as teen speech. This narrative device annoys me to no end. Thankfully, Halliwell largely avoids this. The characters sound like teenagers: emotionally intense, occasionally inarticulate, and still figuring out how to communicate what they feel; this is especially evident with Bren. That restraint gives the relationships, platonic and romantic, a sense of realism and keeps the emotional stakes believable.

Also, the author’s use of music as a communicative language within the narrative is much more than simple nostalgia designed to tug at heartstrings or the application of pop culture to feel hip; instead, it functions as both a form of self-expression and a way to connect with others, all handled brilliantly.

Now, speaking directly to LGBTQ readers who feel they’ve moved beyond youth-focused queer narratives, particularly coming-out or first-love stories—and I include myself, for the most part, in that group—this novel may not initially seem like your cup of tea. Sure, like many YA/MM stories, it revisits familiar territory, but it does so with a level of care and complexity that’s genuine and fresh, even in an over-saturated market.

So, even if you’ve “been there” in terms of life experience, there’s value in seeing those stories told with nuance, especially when they acknowledge both the sweetness and the threat that can accompany queer adolescence. This novel effectively challenges readers’ expectations and assumptions about the genre, providing some truly resonant moments. And you learn some great Irish dialogue!

Ultimately, And Then He Pressed Play: Track One is notable less for reinventing the genre and more for expanding its emotional range. It’s a book that refuses to remain purely comforting, instead insisting that young love stories can—and perhaps should—make room for the difficult realities that shape them, as they shape us into the gay/queer people we become. As Halliwell himself puts it, “Hate will never win in my books,” and that right there gives the message readers ultimately want in the gay/queer YA romance genre. Well, at least I think they should want it if they’re looking for quality work, which And Then He Pressed Play: Track One absolutely is. I’m looking forward to the next book, or should I say, Track Two. 

And Then He Pressed Play: Track One is available for purchase online at amazon.caamazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

For more information on Robert J. Halliwell, visit his website, and follow him on Instagram, TikTok, and Facebook.

It’s My Birthday! Let’s Take A Walk Down Memory Lane.

“…we lived in the blank white spaces at the edges of print. It gave us more freedom. We lived in the gaps between the stories.” — Margaret Atwood

BIRTHDAYS ALWAYS make me think about random, specific moments from my life. Good, bad, and odd. Like that one time my parents forgot my 18th birthday. Yes, I got Molly Ringwalded—totally. My mom loves when I bring this up, especially at special occasion parties. [Insert sarcastic laugh here.] And if you’ve previously heard this story from me, well, here it is again.

So let me fill you in… the day I turned 18, my mom suddenly decided, out of nowhere, that we should go to the mall that afternoon. Once there, she led me straight to Baskin-Robbins, which I’d never been to before. We always went to Laura Secord in the mall. And now here I was, being told to choose my own birthday cake hours before my birthday dinner. Now, my cakes have always been homemade, which was how I liked them. Cherry Chip, with Betty Crocker Cream Cheese icing, please. So I was all, huh?

Apparently, I was now the kind of person who picked out their own birthday cake. A tradition that had never existed before (and has not existed since). And when my mom saw my less-than-impressed face, she told me she thought it would be a fun thing for me to pick out my own cake. Suuuuure… Honey, I was not buying it. You forgot. I got Sixteen Candles forgotten.

But it doesn’t end there.

I also had to pick out my own gift, again at the mall. Yes, they hadn’t gotten me anything yet, either. I was incensed (and you could say entitled, sure, but it was my 18th birthday, after all. Special, right?).
Being the gay drama queen I can be, I went to Zellers and selected as my gift—a pack of batteries. That was it. (I’m totally over this, can you tell? Love ya, Mom!)

Okay, let’s move on and talk about a more pleasant moment in my life: the first time I ever saw my name in print for something I wrote in a published book.

Back in 1998, when I was in university, I was completely obsessed with this fairly new thing called eBay. Heard of it? I bought and sold on there. One of the items I had listed was a Batman Returns movie book that was apparently hard to find outside Canada.

The winning bidder turned out to be a woman named Karen. After the auction, she introduced herself further in an email: she was a writer. She mentioned she was planning a book about Catwoman someday, which was why she bought the book, but at that moment, she was deep into another project: a history of the Woolworth’s department store. In the course of finishing up our transaction, she noticed I was from Ontario and asked if I had any memories of Woolworth’s in Canada.

You bet your ass I did. I told her about going there every week as a kid with my Nan to their downtown Guelph location. Nothing huge, just a small blurb of a memory. I mean, it’s not great writing on my part; it was never meant to be.

A little while later, she emailed me again and asked if she could include my memory in her book. Of course, I said yes.

I didn’t think much of it after that. Life moved on, as it does, until I received a letter in the mail containing a photocopy of page 105 from her upcoming Woolworths book. Tucked into the top corner was my memory alongside my name. Printed, fixed, real.

It’s a strange feeling, seeing yourself reflected back like that. I wasn’t the author, and it wasn’t my book in the traditional sense, but a part of it was still mine—a small piece of my life woven into a larger history for a wider audience to read. It feels special, in what it represents, especially now that my Nan has passed.

At the time, it felt surreal. Now, it feels quietly important.

Maybe that’s why I’m thinking about it today. Birthdays have a way of drawing a line between then and now, and reminding you of all the unexpected ways your life brushes up against the world. That a casual online auction could turn into a footnote in a published book. That a childhood memory could find its way onto a printed page for others to read and smile at.

It’s not the kind of thing you plan for. It just… happens. And somehow, those are the moments that stay with you the longest.

Remembering Woolworth’s: A Nostalgic History of the World’s Most Famous Five-and-Dime is available for purchase online at amazon.ca, amazon.com, Indigo, and Barnes & Noble.

Back Into The Dark: Revisiting Marc Ruvolo’s Pieties

Marc Ruvolo: “…never forget what pain and suffering the queer community went through in the 80s.”

Last year during Pride Month, I had the pleasure of interviewing queer horror author Marc Ruvolo about his life, writing, and music career; we briefly conversed about the original edition of his horror novella Pieties. I also reviewed the book, which you can check out here.

Now I’m reconnecting with Marc to discuss his return to this deeply personal work of queer horror. Pieties has been revised, including a reworked ending that reshapes the story’s emotional and thematic impact. Also, check out that amazing new cover!

With Pieties: Expanded Edition, Marc Ruvolo revisits a haunting narrative and deepens its emotional and psychological resonance, offering both new readers and returning fans a richer, more immersive experience. By expanding the story’s scope and refining its conclusion, he invites us to reconsider not only the fate of Andrew Fineman but also the uneasy boundaries between reality, belief, and fear. Pieties is unsettling, darkly beautiful, and undeniably thought-provoking.

Marc, you’ve added about 4,000 words and reshaped the ending for Pieties: Expanded
Edition. What drew you back to this story, and how did you decide what needed expanding or changing?

After Off Limits Press stopped publishing and returned the rights, the book lay in limbo until Slashic Horror Press offered to re-release it. The story is close to my heart, and I wanted to keep sharing it with others, so I said yes. I’d seen a few complaints that readers wanted “more” of the story, so this seemed like a great opportunity to expand the ending. When I re-read the novella, I felt I’d told Andrew’s story, but neglected the stories of those around him, so I started there.

In my review of the original Pieties, I noted that while the story was fast-paced and thrilling, the ending felt a bit abrupt, leaving some questions about certain characters’ actions and the balance between reality and surreal/supernatural events. And I hope my commentary never came across as complaints—! We’re still friends, right? 🙂

I’m curious, Marc, how did you find readers responded overall to the original ending? And with the Expanded Edition, without giving spoilers, how does the new ending change the way the story lands? Does it make the horror feel darker, the emotions hit harder, or shift the story in another way entirely? Did reader response play a role in how you approached the revised ending?

Some people like ambiguous endings, and some don’t. I enjoy them. I also like not having everything explained and tied up with a neat bow. With the novella length, it’s always a struggle to find the best point to stop the story. Originally, the story ended with a kind of “quiet after the storm” moment, but as I revisited it, I felt I hadn’t done Andrew’s friend, Christine, the proper justice. She’s an unlikable character, and so is Andrew.

The ambiguous ending inferred she was the next to suffer, but once I revisited from her perspective, I realized this was not the case. Andrew and Dick are stuck on their own trajectories to ruin. The women are not. They’re the survivors here; they’re stronger than the religious patriarchy, which destroys both Andrew and his father.

Rewriting and expanding something that’s already finished and published is tricky. I’ve discovered this myself as I’m currently revising my first two novels for republication. What were the most challenging parts of expanding and reshaping Pieties, and did you discover anything surprising along the way? Perhaps something that turned out to be easier than you expected or more complex than you anticipated?

The hardest part was figuring out what I wanted to do with it. I discovered I wanted to expand the ending, but how? A bloody confrontation? A fight to the death? None of that sat right with me in terms of story. Andrew was already lost, either due to external forces or just because he wanted to be. The story couldn’t be about him anymore. So, I revisited Christine, and that opened up a whole new angle. One that included Andrew’s mother, Enid, who is possibly the only true victim in this story. As I wrote the new ending, I was surprised by how much I cared for Christine and Enid—they deserved better.

Thinking about the original edition and how readers responded, what do you hope they notice or feel differently in the Expanded Edition overall?

I just hope more people read and identify with the story, and that they’re satisfied where I left it. I also hope people never forget what pain and suffering the queer community went through in the 80s.

Queer horror often explores fear, otherness, and societal pressures through a unique lens. How did you approach the gay/queer aspects of this revised edition of Pieties, and did expanding the story give you more room to explore Andrew Fineman’s identity and experiences, especially within the context of the period?

I lived through the 80s, and a much smaller version of Andrew’s experiences. The book is dedicated to my high school boyfriend, Dwight Glass, who later passed away from complications of HIV. I see a lot of Andrew in my memories of him. [Image of Dwight on the right.] I think this time around, I wanted to show the fraught relations we had with straight women. The love, and the hate, and the confusion. But we couldn’t have been who we were without them.

Going a tad meta here—if Andrew could send one piece of advice back to you while you were writing the original edition, what do you think he’d say about the changes in the Expanded Edition?

His advice would be: write his story, warts and all. To not pull any punches regarding the time and people’s attitudes. I think he’d tell me he was glad that, in the end, while I couldn’t save Enid, I saved Christine.

Marc, you’re a musician who founded the Chicago-based punk band No Empathy in the 1980s and served as their lead singer. You’re also someone deeply connected with the queercore (or homocore) scene. It’s clear that alternative music, dark melodies, and pounding beats are a core part of your creative soul. Since Pieties is set in 1981, if Andrew could play one cassette tape on a boombox while all the new horrors unfold, which album from that era would it be, and why?

I think it would be Buzzcocks “Singles Going Steady” for the first half of the book and Bauhaus “In the Flat Field” for the second half. I’d choose that Buzzcocks LP mainly because of the song “Orgasm Addict,” and Bauhaus for the song “Dark Entries,” which I feel fits the mood perfectly.

Now that Pieties has an Expanded Edition, do you see yourself revisiting other works in a similar way in the future?

My first novella, Sloe, is currently out of print, and I hope to expand it as well. It received some of the same criticism, the open ending left people wanting more, so I’d like to add a bit of what I think people were after. I’m busy finishing a few projects right now, but after those, I think I’ll tackle Sloe again. As it is my first published book, it definitely holds a special place in my heart. Thanks for the questions, and thanks to everyone who reads my strange, twisted little stories!

Thank you, Marc, for taking the time to talk about Pieties: Expanded Edition! I can’t wait for readers to discover this bold, haunting new retelling destined to be a queer horror classic.

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